C'mon C'mon

Truly,Madly,Deeply

Chapter 17: Like all those days and weeks and months I tried to steal a kiss and all those sleepless nights and day dreams where I pictured this,Im just the underdog that finally got the girl and I am not ashamed to tell it to the world

We all went together for dinner. The night was pretty fun. Although we embarrassed each other through the night...but one thing was still on my mind,louis

"But Eleanor,I still love her" I Sighed pushing her off me. I can't just kiss Eleanor when Im dating Kasey,even know it doesn't feel like it. We've only gone on a couple of dates,to the movie,lazer tag and Starbucks.  "Seriously Lou, you know she loves Harry,come on its obvious"  Eleanor sighed and kissed me again. They have been acting pretty Flirty lately, but so have El and i.... I feel guilty but at the same time I feel that El is right. "Just tell her you don't love her" she snapped when I pushed her off once more. "But That's not true" I protested. "well then she doesn't have to know about us,why are you saying this now? we've kinda been together a week and you've only dated her for a month,she'll forget about it"  "Still Im not going to hurt her" I can't just do that,the last thing I wanna do is ruin our friendship. "Well Lou,I gotta go so ill text You later" Eleanor sighed and got up. She walked to the door,waved then walked out. I can't go on like this,I feel so guilty, she's a great girl, but I just don't feel like she loves me...the way she loves Harry, he always makes her smile,and laugh,of course I make her laugh to but something about Harry, I just feel like I can't compare. Justin texted me for the first time in a while yesterday, saying him and ashleigh were together,I knew it would happen,it was so obvious. Kasey and I haven't talked in a couple if days,she's probably to busy talking to Harry. I just don't think she's interested in me anymore. That's not true,I mean I can tell she's fighting it,poor girl. I think Im going to talk to her,like tomorrow maybe we can go to Starbucks and talk. I think That's what really needs to happen. I decided to text her

Me: Hey, are you ok

Kasey: Yeah...but we need to talk...

Me: Actually That's what I was about to say...

Kasey: Starbucks?

Me: you know me so well

Kasey: when

Me: tomorrow after school?

Kasey: Yeah

I put down my phone,and thought about what I was doing,what I was going to loose. Hopefully she won't be mad at me, but how do you tell a girl you kind of hooked up with your ex? I laid on my bed, my thoughts turned to a blur as I dozed off.

Im scared, I don't want to hurt him, How do I tell him I about Harry and I? I mean,hooking up with your ex while your dating his best friend is kind of awkward. I hope he'll understand, but I can't help but feel guilty as hell. I hope I dont break his heart,I couldnt imagine seeing him upset...and what if he'd Mad at Harry? What if I ruin their friendship? Then Im sure Harry would hate me. But Louis is pretty understanding,and he has been hanging with Eleanor I think he'll understand. I feel my eyes get weary as I laid there Thinking.

    I heard Autumn leaves by ed sheeran begin to play,I was getting a call...at three in the morning? Who the hell thinks that they can call my lazy ass up at three in the morning!? I looked at the caller I.D and was tempted to ignore it. In big white letters it read 'Ashleigh' I sighed and answered the call. "What?" I snapped in my morning voice,And buried my head in the pillow. "KASEY! OH MY GOD KASEY GUESS WHAT!" she screamed. I almost about to hang up,but shouldnt,I've already answered the phone...big mistake. "What could possibly be going on in your life that was so important that you could not Wait until tomorrow?" I asked wiping the sleep out of my eyes. "Im on my period!" she squealed. What the actual fuck?