C'mon C'mon

Strong

Chapter 21: Im sorry if i say i need ya, but i dont care im not scared of love,coz when im not with you im weaker is that so wrong is it so wrong that you make me strong

***Earlier***

The glass of the bottle shattered on the wall and I reached for another one out of the cubbard. "Harold drinking isn't going to solve anything" I slurred and opened up the bottle, I felt the little buzz flood through my vains,it was my third bottle...and I don't drink. I only have once...so why now. My phone buzzed. It was Ashleigh.

Ashleigh: She's sleeping. I'll drive her home when she wakes up.

Me: What?

Ashleigh: You just texted me asking if I could take her home once she was ready to talk to you so you could explain everything...Harry are you okay?

Me: No I'm not,I'm about to loose the girl I love. I'm not okay I'm a bastard, an asshole! I didn't even try to stop her.

Ashleigh: She'll understand. Trust me she loves you too,she's been crying for the pass three hours

Me: I made her cry....for three hours? Kasey? crying? God I'm such a dick!

I threw another bottle at the wall,out of anger at myself and because of my drunken state.

Ashleigh: and I probably shouldn't have said that....

Then everything when black.

I woke up to the sound of my phone going off. It was a text,I quickly opened it hoping it would be her but it wasn't... it was Ashleigh.

Ashleigh: She's home,now go talk to her,Who knows what she'll do...and hurry...just in case. I knew this was a mistake,to leave her alone when she's having every negative thought possible,I'm so stupid I didn't even think.

Me: On my way.

I almost ran to my car and tried to push the mess I'd have to explain to my mother when she got home from work. she took overtime. Right now my main priority is Kasey. I pulled into her drive way and ran to the door. Her mum must have just left because she isn't here. Sometimes she works midnights too,to cover lunches. The house was dark,except for one light...the bathroom... Shit

"Harry?" I jumped and put my arm behind my back with the razor in my hand. "What are you doing here?" I sniffled and wiped my eyes with my free hand,the one that wasn't bleeding from the marks I've just made. "What are you hiding behind your back!?" He asked with worry in his voice. I shifted uncomfortablely to block his view. "Nothing." I replied and stepped back. "Please tell me you didn't.... " His blood shot and puffy eyes made more tears as he walked closer to me. "Harry I'm fine" I lied, I'm not fine. "Show me your wrists. Please baby tell me you didn't" His green eyes stared into mine,but I instantly glanced to the floor trying to not share eye contact. That's the last thing I need right now,to look into his eyes and seeing the disappointment in his face. He took my arm into his hand,I felt his eyes looking at the cuts. "Oh Kitty" his voice cracked as he pulled me in for a hug. I felt his warm tears stream down his cheeks and so did mine.I've never been this weak before, and honestly I don't think be's been this weak eaither. He lifted up my chin and cupped his palms around my cheeks. "Why Kasey why? Did I make you do this?" You could hear the hurt and pain in his voice. A tear found it's way down my cheek and landed in Harry's palm. "I'm s-s-so so sorry" he studdered into my neck hugging me once more. "I'm sorry too" I whimpered running much fingers through his curls. "Why did you do it...why did you do this to yourself. Don't ruin your beautiful body baby" He cried as he looked at my wrist once more. He gently held it as I spitted out an answer. "Because I don't deserve you,there are so many other prettier girls in the w-world,and I accused you of something horrible that you didn't even do to me. I'm such a bitch". "No! no no no your not,you had every right to be mad,it looked like I was kissing her but I wasn't. If anyone is the bitch it's me" He said and sheded another tear. I know I shouldnt have,but I couldn't help but giggle at his response. "Your not a bitch Harold" I said,a smile tugging on my lips. "Well the way I'm crying right now,I'd be considered one" He laughed with me. "Let's go get you cleaned up yeah?" He asked as I wiped his tears and he wiped mine. "Okay" was all I could say. After Harry took a wet cloth to my wrist he carried my bridal style to the couch and laid me on his chest. He looked into my eyes as he stroked my hair and we sat there silent for a while. "You know I love you right?" Leave it to Harry to break up a peaceful moment xD

I nodded and he continued. "And you love me right?" He asked, you could hear the fear in his voice. "Yes" I replied. I could tell he had more to say,so I shut up and listened. "You know,I was scared today. I thought I might loose you again. I thought I'd loose you forever. I started drinking so I could stop the pain,but it just added more on to it. I'm so weak and useless without you kasey...I don't know what or where I'd be without you. I love you so damn much kase, I need you Kitty,so much it's unexplainable. Without you I'm so weak,but with you I'm stronger. You'd never leave me again would you?" He asked. "No Never... never in a million years Harry,I couldn't, I'd just fall right back to you" I said honestly. It's true,if I can stop falling in love with him once,there's no way I won't be able to not love him again. "Promise me that you'll never leave me?" "I promise" He gently grabbed my arm and kissed my hand. "And, promise me you'll never hurt yourself again?" he asked and kissed my nose. "As long as your with me" I whispered and before I knew it I felt my eyes get weary as Harry sang to me.

Soon I fell asleep in his arms

**********I don't really know what to say...but don't cut,it doesn't help the pain it only adds on,maybe not that much physically,but mentally because the scares are always there to remind you of how much you were hurt. And even if they go away and you pick up that razor again,every memory of you cutting will come back. So don't cut,please darlings,trust me. If you ever Need someone to talk to you can inbox me or Kik me. My Kik is Squirrelicorn_Styles. Thanks loves