C'mon C'mon

Loved You First

Loved You First

Chapter 5: Girl it should be me,driving to your house knocking on your door kissing you on the mouth holding on your hand dancing in the dark,Coz I was the only one who loved you from the start "Harry! Did you see it he kissed me!" Kasey exclaimed when we got in my car. "Yeah,Congrats" I said faking a smile,but she didn't seem to notice. "Thanks,for..you know driving me home Harry" she smiled. God I'd swim the ocean just to see her smile. "Your welcome love" I replied. "So...do you think he likes me?" She asked breaking the silence. "Yeah,That's why I asked you because he had a crush on you to" I replied focusing on the road. "Is everything Ok Harry?" She asked concerned. "No,I'm fine" I said and smiled. But inside I knew I wasn't fine,I felt broken,empty,like a flower vase,with no flower. "You don't seem fine" she mumbled. Your right Kasey,I'm not fine,maybe its because Im not over you,and I still love you,I didn't think Lou and El would break up,but they did,and now I lost every chance I had to get you back, I'm broken because I'm in love with you and your heart is taken...no,I can't say that to her. "I'm just tired" I replied, then silence. Its never been so quiet with me and Kasey in the car...well I mean one time,but That's when we were snogging so thats different. Usually we are laughing, with the music up,the windows down. Her hair flying in her face, with that beautiful smile. Even just talking about nonsense,But nothing. Harry took Kasey home,and now I can't stop thinking about her,see I knew I could have fun without El! But I will miss her,even know I'm heart broken because of her...I thought she was..you know...the one. But I see I was wrong. I don't need her to make me smile anymore. I've got someone beautiful, who will love me for me and not move on when someone better comes along. But then...what if Kasey isn't the one,what if she's Harry's. I mean they can actually have a conversation when Kasey and I couldn't even do that. And the way he makes her smile...I just don't think I could compare to that. Anyway I got her number so I will be texting her later. I wish I could have took her home though, but Harry knows where she lives so I don't mind. Something isn't right with Harry,and I can tell. He hasn't talked to me the whole way home. He just stayed quiet. Usually we'Re talking and laughing about nonsense, but now...nothing. maybe he just is tired although I doubt That's the reason. What if he's jealous... that I kissed Louis? No I don't think so,he seemed happy about me liking Lou in the first place? "You still live at the same place right?" Harry chuckled as we pulled in the driveway. "Yeah" I giggled and took off my seat belt. He took off his,got out of the car and walked me to the door. "Well,it was nice to dance with you again,something we haven't done sense...you know" he said looking me in the eyes. "Yeah,thanks Harry" I smiled. "Bye Kitty" he sighed and quickly pecked me on the lips. "Bye Harry" I said biting my lip,then I opened my door and walked inside. It was ten o'clock, and my parents had to get up early so they were most likely sleeping. I gotta immit, I was pretty suprised when Harry kissed me,it was nothing like we use to do,but we aren't dating anymore. I walked up to my room,changed and got ready for bed. Why do they always have these dances on Thursdays? Its weird why not Friday? I laid down and soon fell asleep. I've never felt so down after being with Kasey. I miss her,I miss holding her,kissing her,hunging her,dancing with her,I miss her laugh when I tickled her thighs,That's the most ticklish spot on her body;I miss calling her to say good morning and goodnight,Instead of texting,I miss cuddling with her,I miss the 'I love yous',it just seems so hopeless to live without her.