Cut (Prince Caspian Love Story)

A New Friend and Something to Think About

Later on in the night when everyone was fast asleep, I lie wide awake in my spot by the fire. My mind had been overwhelming me as of late and I hadn't had any time to think my feelings through.

Caspian is a good man, that I knew. But I also knew that not everything in life is as it seems. How can I give him all my trust and possibly my heart when I can't even do so with my own mother?

I haven't been here long enough to truly get to know the eldest King and it is important to me, more than anything, to be careful with who I confide in. At the same time though I feel guilty because I have already kissed him and led him on. How can I explain that I'm just not ready, that I may never be ready.

It would be selfish of me to expect him to wait for me, but at the same time I am not ready for this kind of relationship. I know nothing of the sort seeing as I have had no such relationship previous to this.

Maybe if I t...

My thoughts were cut off when Eustace startled me by moving loudly beside me. Turning my head I realized that he was now lying awake as well. I could only imagine how it felt to be in his position right now. He must be absolutely terrified and knowing how much this boy liked to speak, he must have been rather lonely as well.

After thinking for a moment I decided to speak up.

"You awake too? Yeah, I know what that's like."

After a moment of silence he looked over towards me and I decided to continue.

"I know we don't talk much but I know you must agree that it's quite odd being here. Everything seems off and not just because of the fact that animals talk but also because the people seem quite different then in our world as well... I may not be a dragon at the moment but I understand what it's like to feel that you don't belong." I finished hesitantly.

Eustace responded with a slight nod and continued to look at me expectantly as if curious to understand.

I didn't know what to say but just then Eustace pointed his head in the direction of the King.

"Oh, so you've noticed that..." I began. "Well, unfortunately there isn't much to tell. I mean I like him, I do, but I don't feel that it is going to go anywhere. Who knows when we will have to return and besides, I also just don't think I'm ready." I stated quietly, afraid to be heard.

Silence followed. "He's a good man and he deserves good things. I just don't believe that any of that includes me." I trailed off sadly before raising my hand to gently lay it on Eustace as a thank you.

"You're a good listener, Eustace." I humorously retorted, with a hint of seriousness in my voice.

"You're not so bad." I yawned before lying my head on his back. Surprisingly he didn't seem to mind and instead rested his own head back on the sand and began to peacefully drift off to sleep, myself following soon after.

Besides, I could worry more in the morning.