Sad Talk #1; Johnny Cade's death

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by Your-Lie-in-April

by Your-Lie-in-April

The first time I read The Outsiders, I did not cry about Johnny's death.

*Fandom gasps*

It happened so quickly, ya'know?

*Fandom leers*

Not even the second time I read Johnny's death did a tear streak my face.

*Dally joins the fury of Fandom*

But yesterday night, as I fell asleep, I thought about Johnny.

I thought.

And I thought.

Until finally, I remembered.

I remembered how Pony could hear a soft, fearful voice as he read his best friend's last letter. Johnny wrote that letter, and in between those words, we actually got to see some of Johnny's thoughts.

I cried. I cried when I thought about that letter.

Johnny thought he was no one in the world. He thought his life meant nothing. And...and the thing...the thing that breaks my heart most every time is when he saved those damn kids in that fire, and how he finally smiled.

It wasn't any kind of smile.

It was a special smile. Meaningful.

Like, maybe as he saved those kids he thought to himself,"Ya know, maybe I ain't so bad after all."

Maybe he thought,"Maybe my life is worth something."

Maybe he thought,"I could change it. Just like Pony."

Maybe he thought,"I could change it. And Dally could change it. Heck, maybe I could convince him by showin' him a sunset."

The roof would start to snap.

"A sunset...a sunset just like Pony's."

And as he thought all those thoughts, the roof would tumble over his head. Pain would jolt his back until he felt like there was no pain at all. A screaming Dally would come to rescue.

Johnny would close his eyes,"Maybe..."

And Dally would hold him tighter than life.

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I'm sorry guys. And I'm not lying like others when I say I cried about Johnny's Cade's death. I mean it. S.E. Hinton sure has a way with words.

Anyways.

Don't think of yourself like Johnny. Just by reading this, you mean a lot to me.

♡Reminder that you are bright and beautiful.