I know I haven't done right by you
And I was never good enough either,
But you taught me all I needed to know.
I wasn't trying to be perfect,
And I don't want to be yours
All I wanted was for someone to help me feel okai again,
No matter the cost.
Sometimes I think back to old times
I picture you and I together:
So happy and content
Or so they thought.
We fooled everyone into thinking we were "so happy,"
But really you were tearing me apart inside.
I don't know what I ever saw in you
Because now all I see is a pathetic waste
I cried when you hurt me and I smiled when you "cared,"
All I really wanted was for you to just be there.
I wish I never said yes,
And I wish you would've never asked
I should've saw that it was all a trap.
Now we're over and I'm no longer scared
Of being close when your temper is bad
I no longer love you and I really don't care
I hope someone hurts you and then disappears.
*May 17, 2016*
++This one was very hard to write, although the words flowed quickly. It may seem like an abusive relationship, but it's not about one (not physical abuse anyways). If you wanna associate it with that because it suits you, that's a personal preference. This is about a relationship I was in off and on for about five years. It tore me apart and I am still trying to build my self-esteem back, but to no avail. Thanks to all my readers and the people who vote, it makes me happy to see that people enjoy my writing. I hope you all have a wonderful day and life :) muah muah 😘++
*May 17, 2016*
