Our Love

Why me? Part 2

Andrea pov

Last night was chill as hell. I couldn't get the thought of fucking Shawna out of my head. Plus i had honey come home with me and let me tell you.... shorty was fine and gave the best head i ever had. I made sure i got her number before she left. My mom left me with Jessica today which sucks because i really wanted to go out with Alice and fuck bitches. Oh and make money. Im not a broke bitch. Jessica was laying in my bed sleep while i went to get in the shower. I cleaned up and let my hair get wet so i could put it in a curly bun. Ladies love that shit. I put on my sports bra and my basketball shorts and took a few pictures for snap and Instagram. I was one fine female real shit. Soon as i uploaded my last picture on snap my sister started crying her little eyes out. I picked her up and started talking to her.

"Aww whats wrong with sister baby?" She laughed and started slobbing all over my face. that's what she calls kissing. I smiled and walked to the kitchen to get her food. I loved my sister, but sometimes i wish my mom waited a little longer to have her. My mom doesn't may me any mind now because of my sister. The front door opened and i though it was my mom home for lunch or something but no, it was a freaking nigga in our house trying to steal. I put Jessica in the back room in her seat and let her eat. I know that would keep her quiet and safe. I walked over to the sink and grabbed the knife i just use and went after ole boy. I was scared of shit.

"Aye nigga the fuck you doing?" I yelled. He turned around slowly and smile at me.  Ok so this nigga stupid. He came running at me and i stabbed his ass. This nigga did nit go down and i then realized i should have called the police or some shit because aint no stopping this nigga. I took off to my room and tried to dial Alice up but he was fast and the knife was gone out of his arm. 

"Look nigga dont come any closer." I said. He laughed and kept walking as i walked back.

"Bitch shut up." He grabbed me before i could run into my bathroom. I pulled and punched the shit out of him but he acted like the shit didnt hurt. He slammed me on the floor and i felt all the air leave my body. I was scared now real shit.

"Please whatever you about to do dont. The cops are on their way." I said.

"didnt i tell you to shut up."

"Please." he grabbed both of my hands and held them tight i kicked his ass and tried to fight. I screamed as i felt so much pain shoot through my body. I couldnt believe this shit was happening to me! He kept shoving his self in me and the tears came fast.

"Please." I said 

"Aw so now you wanna cry? Well to bad bitch." He didnt stop and i kept fighting.

Shawna pov

"Mom why cant you come?" I was sitting in the rehab visiting my mom and watching this little girl beg her mom to come to something at her school.

"Baby you listening?" My mom waved her hands in my face and i shook my head and looked at her in the eyes.

"Uh yeah."

"Well tell me what i just said."

"Ok i didnt hear."

"Every time you come in here you never listen to me. Dont come if you not gon listen."

"Mom im sorry i just... its hard to see you like thing and not be upset." I said. I was telling the truth. I try to be happy that she's getting help, but if she wouldnt drink all the time and so much she wouldnt be here in the first place!

"Well im sorry dont come anymore."She had tears in her eyes. My dad came back and sat down. He was confuse as to why i had a hard look on my face and my mom was crying.

"Whats going on?" he asked.

"I dont think its a good idea for yall to come see me anymore." She said. My dad looked at me then back to me mom.

"Shawna if you up in here talking reckless its about to be a problem." My dad said. 

"I cant see her like this. Im sorry! It hurts too much." I got up and left. I knew i would have to walk a good ways to get home but fuck it. I  couldn't stand to be in there any longer. My phone started ringing and it was the rehab place i didnt answer i knew it was my mom trying to speak to me. I wasnt going home. I went right to Cal's house. I wanted to relax and have a good time. It took me about 20 minutes to get there and i knocked on the door. He opened the door half naked.

"Cal where are your clothes?" I walked past him as he kept the towel around him and closed the door. I went up to his room and it was some girl in here from school. She was one of the girls who hung with Ashley. I looked at her and then at Cal. Like he fuck anybody its sad.

"Hell naw get yo dyke ass out of here!" She yelled. I looked at her hard then turned on my heels and went to the extra room Cal had.

"Bitch get out!" I heard Cal yell.

"Why? what I do?"

"You think i aint hear that shit? Thats my homie and you respect her. Yo shit aint even that good. Get the fuck out!" I started laughing hard as hell. I went to the door and waited for her to walk out.

"Bitch what you laughing at?" She spat.

"You loose pussy ass." I said and me and Cal died laughing as she stomped out. I was too done. that made me happy. 

"Alright fam cut the laughing. Whats wrong?" He asked me. See Cal knew when shit was up with me. First i came over here on a weekend which i never do and then I just spoke up to that bitch that insulted me.

"My mom." I walked right back to his room and sat in his desk chair. I was not fucking with that bed until he changed them sheets.

"Is she ok?" He asked as he changed the sheet.

"yes but im not." He put the new sheets on and and grabbed his boxers and shorts and headed to the bathroom.

"What happened?"

"I blew up at her. I was wrong. Cal i just cant take seeing her like she is. It hurts so bad. I cant take it." I said putting my head in my hands and sighed. I felt strong arms around me and like always i felt at ease. 

"Shawna you have to look past that. Shes getting better and trying to do right by you. You cant let the past stop you from having a future with you mom." I looked at Cal and wish i had him as a blood brother. I could always have him by my side. Yeah he had my back, but he had other friends.

"I understand i just really need to get a lot off my chest."

"Well do it. Shawna you cant stay quiet forever. I know you get nervous and its hard for you to speak in front of people, but you can be like that forever." He was right. I needed to change and that starts today. No more fucks given. Cal's phone ranged and he picked it up. His face said it all. Something bad had happened. I was scared already. I had to be tough tho.

"Cool." He said. "Aye you staying or rollin?" He asked. Ok so it must not be so bad because Cal wouldn't put me in harms way.

"Coming." I said. He put clothes on and we were gone. we pulled up at some house. It was nice compared to mine. well it was the same just new. I got out the car and follow Cal. He opened the door and i saw Alice and Andrea and a baby in the living area. Andrea had tears stains down her face. I looked at her and i knew something wasn't right. she looked like she had died.

"What that nigga look like?" Cal asked. He had pulled his gun out and was ready to murder. I had only once seen this side of him and it aint nun to play with.

"I Know who the fuck he is Cal."  Alice said. she loaded her gun and Andrea pulled two from under the couch. She make sure they were loaded and threw one at me. I let it hit the fucking ground. I have never in my life fucked with guns or wanted to. Hell no. Alice and Andrea looked at me crazy while Cal just picked it up and gave me the keys to his car.

"Stay here with the baby." He said to me. I looked at the child and walked over to her. She smiled at me and i smiled back.

"Her name is Jessica. everything you will need is in my room up the stairs to the right." Andrea said. They got up and left. Me and the baby just looked at each other.

"Ok so Jessica what do you do around here for fun." I said to her. She just laughed in my face and reached for the floor.