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Shawna pov

I woke up sore as hell. I mean sore! I looked around and saw that Andrea was not in my sight. I felt stupid. What if she told everyone what happened? I couldn't have that happen. I got up slowly and made my way to the bathroom. I got in the shower and bump[ drake station on Pandora. I was nervous to see her. Once i finished my shower i walked over to my closet to find something to wear. I wanted this sore feeling to go away. I could tell i was walking a little funny. I heard the front door open and close. I knew i was the only one here so who the fuck could that be? I grabbed my gun and waited. My door came open and it was Andrea holding food.

"Aye put that up. Its just me." She said. putting the food down.

"I didnt know i though you were gone and not coming back." I said and out my gun down.

"Why would you think that?"

"Because i didnt see you when i got up."

"Well naw. So hurry up so we can eat and leave." I looked at her confused.

"where we going?"
"Out." I looked at her for a moment and turned back to my closet. I had a feeling that was new but I didn't like it. I didn't know how to explain it. I really didn't want Andrea around. She made me feel less and I think it's because I really wasn't ready for last night.
"Look I'm not in the mood for that do could you please leave?" I asked. She looked at me confused. I put my head down and walked over to my room door. I could feel her stare and I just couldn't bring myself to look at her.
"Fine." She said and left. I looked out my window to see her just standing outside my door. She stood there for a while before she got back in her car and sped off. I felt like a fool but I needed time think about what all happened. I got dressed in shorts and I big shirt. I let my hair do its own thing and went to the kitchen to eat the food Andrea brought me. I picked my phone up and called Cal.
"Wassup lil nigga?" He said soon as he picked up.
"Hi." I said.
"What's wrong?"
"Can you stop by really quick?"
"Yeah." I hung up and continue urged eating while I waited for cal.

Cal pov
I got dressed and headed to Shawna house. She sounded sad. I knew her and Andrea hung out last night. I pulled up and opened the door. She wa sitting on the couch watching orange is the new black. I swear that girl can't get enough of this show. She paused it and I made my way to her.
"Wassup?"
"I had sex." She said. My eyes went wide and I wanted to know every detail like a little school girl.
"With who?"
"Andrea. I sent her home though."
"Why?" She looked at her hands. And sighed.
"It made me feel less. When I woke up she was gone and I didn't like that because I felt that she had fucked me and left me, but she just left to get us food and then take me out. I sent her away."
"Why does it make you feel less shorty?" I didn't understand. Shit my first time I felt like the king!
"I wasn't ready. I lied to her. I told her I was ready and I wasn't. I just didn't want the night to end. Now she probably hates me." I picked her chin up and made her look me in the eyes.
"Look shorty she understands. You have to learn how to express yourself to her and not just me."
"Ok. So you I call her back?"
"Go over there later." I said. I pressed play in the show and she hugged me and we chilled for awhile.
Andreas pov
How could she tell me to leave? What did I do wrong? Right now I'm just standing in her porch. I can't move. I just don't understand why she would tell me to leave? Was it because I wasn't there hen she opened her eyes? What was it. I needed to know but I knew Shawna and she's not one to open up.  I just looked at my car. I didn't want to leave not one bit, but I had too. I got in my car and sped off. I wish Alice was back but she wasn't and I knew she was busy so that leaves me all alone. Cal is my humor but I've never came to him about my relationship problem because I've never really been so close to a honey before like Shawna . I usually fuck and leave for good but it's something about her. I pulled up at my house and walked in. My mom and sister were in the kitchen eating. Jessica started clapping and motioning me to come to her. I did as told. My little sister runs me now. I've learned to let go of the jealousy because she's a any she needs more care and I know my mom loves me and I was just being crazy. I picked her up and she started kissing all over my face. My mom smiled and looked at me strange.
"What's wrong?" I asked.
"You having sex?"asked.
"Hu?" I was confused and I really didn't want to speak to my mom about sex. She never really talked to much about it. She just trusted me I guess.
" you heard me. I see the marks and I know what those marks come from."
"Maaaa." I drag out. I haven't even told her I was a lesbian. She just thinks that this is a style. Even with Alice she feels that it's our generation.
"Who is he?" She asked standing up now and leaving against the table.
"Well it's a her." I say lowly. I watch her face and it does t change but I know she's ready to kick my ass.
" her?" She said.
"Yes her. Her name is Shawna." Still watching her face it doesn't change its still the simple face she always wears.
"Since when were you a lesbian?"she asked. It sounded like she was interested instead of mad like I thought she would be.
"Since forever." I said. She looked me up and down and looked at my marks.
"Top or bottom?"
"Both but last night top." I answered
"Mmm we'll be careful honey because bitches ain't shit just like niggas." I smiled and hugged her.
"What's this for?" She asked smiling.
"For accepting me."
"Baby I dont care what you like it's your life." She kisses my cheek and sat back down eating.