A Feeling of a Strong Affection

Chapter Three: Alfresco

I gazed at the stars glowing in the moonlight while seating near a cliff. It lightens up my mood.

As I went back to the campsite, I saw Mark wandering around the firewood.

Its freezing out here. Go sleep in your tent now. Mark saw me hiding in a tree, peeping at him.

I walked through my tent as he said so without saying a single word.

Camping sure is hard. Despite that the cold weather and the animals around the wild, I keep getting cautious about the ghosts around here; wandering spirits. And on top of that, were on a small mountain peak! Which is kind of dangerous.

Were divided into two in one tent. Must be same gender. However, Im soloing on a tent since were all ninety-seven; forty-two boys and fifty-five girls. Nobody wants to be my companion as everyone hates me. I already expected that this will happen.

I checked my digital wrist watch and its already December Three, twelve-midnight! I primed the sheets so I can have my sleep. I keep wandering Karl. How Karl feel about me. Is it mutual? Or not? Cause I have in mind that we share the same feeling. The way he acts around me is so Different. He only acts like that in front of me. The act of being generous, kind and pure.

As the sun rises, my eyes glimpsed the light through the windows of my tent, ahead me. I didnt slept well. My eyes feels heavy. It makes my eyelids want to shut down again due to my drowsiness. I went back to sleep again then suddenly the scoutmaster made some noise banging the two frying pans butt loudly.

Everybody wake up! Rise and shine boys and girls! The scoutmaster shouted.

Argh! So displeasing! So disturbing! I havent slept much yet! Im talking to myself crazily.

I rapidly sat straight and felt dizziness causing my enormous brain to explode with tiring sensation. I took my jacket then went outside my tent, stretching.

Everybody listen! Todays the second day of our camping; sleeping outdoors. So right now, were going to do some fishing down this mountain and do some various challenges for some power and strength. But first, gather some woods to burn. Well be having our breakfast. The scoutmaster consisted the schedule for the later.

I packed my things up for fishing after eating breakfast.

Fishing is usually the least hobby that I wanted to do. I had enough. It traumatizes my brain remembering that Dad died after being eaten by a shark near the seashore.

They caught big-sized fishes while I caught none. I cant even ride on a boat. Im just left behind them, alone.

Are you alright? You look so lonely here. Karl appeared right behind me.

Nah, Im fine. Just leave me be. I said in a low-tone voice.

You look sick. I can carry you back at the campsite if you want? He touched my forehead and held my left hand.

I-Im fi – I feel like I was falling from a cliff. I didnt even finished the words I was going to say.

Jean! You okay? Jean. Wake up! Wake up! The last words that I heard before I fell.

My senses were back. I feel kind of heavy and my head aches badly. As I open my eyes, I caught Karl trying to kiss me on the lips. Our faces are probably one inch apart.

What the? My eyes were wide-open. He immediately evade his motive leaving him speechless.

My heart started palpitating. Questions starting to accumulate my brain. Thousands of conclusions started to visualize. He cant even speak up neither I.

Jean. If only you knew how much I love you. He confessed after a moment of silence.

Is it true? Karl loves me too? Am I dreaming? How could this possibly be?!

I also have something to say to you. I love you too. Im just afraid of showing my true affection for you. Im just afraid of being rejected. I added.

Tears of joy went down his face. He came closer again then he hold my cheek tenderly. His eyes were crystalized. They were very attractive and beautiful. It makes my heart pound harder and fall harder.

Our heartbeat synchronizes as he try to kiss me. I touched his chest firmly while he hugs me passionately. I closed my eyes then I woke up. It was just a crazy dream of mine, fantasizing about him! I admit, I felt some disappointment after I woke up.

Hey, you okay? Karl saw me waking up as he try get closer to my bed.

I nodded. I just feel a little bit dizzier. I rose and he supported me in my back. He pulled out the thermometer in my left armpit.

You still have a high fever. He passed me the thermometer he was holding. My temperature was thirty-nine degrees Celsius!

Ill prepare you something to eat. Wait here. Karl went outside the tent while I rested again.

Sometimes, I hate myself. Cold-weather is usually my best enemy. It always making me sick. This is so maddening. Despite that I have a low-energy and power, my sense of emotion are also weak. I hate loving Karl.

Here, Ive just finished cooking this. Dig up. He entered the tent after fifteen minutes. It was rice porridge that he was holding.

I slowly sat straight and trying to reach the porridge at his hand, giving me.

Oh wait. Dont move. Just lay down a bit. Ill just help you out eat this porridge. He spooned the rice then blew it gently and put it into my mouth. And repetitively as it goes.

This is so embarrassing! I can feel myself blushing like a peachy fruit with a glow of pink. And on top of that, his shiny hazel eyes were looking at me so intensely. I was treated like a child or rather girlfriend-in-sick.

The scoutmaster was informed about what happened to me. Karl is now taking in charge of me as a given responsibility of the scoutmaster.