Barely Breathing || Larry Stylinson

Paralized Louis Pov

A/N putting this at the begging because i have something very important to tell you! i was reading worthless ( a larry stylinson fanfiction, that you should totally check out)  and i got to the ending and spent about an hour crying, but they're is an alternative ending that is a bit less wants to make you cry! Anyways so i came back and had 100 reads! :D thank you guys so much, love you :D Please keep commenting, voting and things it really means a lot to me! Love you guys, this chapter is dedicated to the author of worthless who is amazing and gave me so many feels!!! :D

I took the blade, and pierced my skin, blood oozing out more and more with each and every cut, the pain going away slowly, by now my arm was bright red, the scars running deep through the broken skin.

I carried on going

"It was my fault"

"It wasn't my fault"

"It was my fault"

"It wasn't my fault"

"It was my fault"

"It wasn't my fault"

"It was my fault..." i said as i drew the last cut out of my blood stained arm, a stinging sensation ruining through my cold body

I heard the door open and Zayn come in

"Louis you  ok"

"Yep, i'm coming out now"

I took some toilet paper and wrapped it round my arm, before rolling down my sleeves and unlocking the door, Zayn saw my tear stained face

"This isn't you're fault Lou"

"It is"

"But it isn't Lou, come on i brought you a sandwich, you need to eat"

"No i don't"

"Yes you do, Louis if you don't want to, then I'm going to force feed it to you like a  5 year old"

"Fine, force feed me then"

"If that's how you want to play Louis, then that's how we'll play"

"Just give me the fucking sandwich Zayn"

We walked out the toilets, and back to the waiting lounge, i was taking small bites of the cheese sandwich, the rubberness of the cheese hurting my throat.

"Louis, where were you you've been gone for ages!"

"No where"

"Mr Tomlinson, Mr Malik, Mr Horan, Mr Styles, Miss Peazer"

We stood up as the doctor came out wearing a mask and the plain blue uniform

"Mr Payne is going to be alright we are keeping him in for a few days, but he is going to be ok, the bullet hit him in his lower abdomen, we have removed the bullet from him but it will take him a while to get used to his new life"

"His new life"

"Yes, he wont be able to walk for a while, it will take 4-6 weeks for the sensation in his legs to come back"

"He's Paralyzed?"

"Non- Permanent paralisation, yes!"

I thanked the doctor, glad Liam will be ok.

"Can i go see him?"

"Yes but just be aware he has just come out of surgery, he wont be his normal self"

"Thank you"

I ran in the plain white, hospital room, a single chair laying by the bed, Liam was lying on the crisp sheets, a smile spread across his face...

"Im so sorry Liam"

"Its fine Lou"

"But it isn't"

"Why isn't it, im fine you're fine"

"It should of been me instead"