off the map ➳ grayson

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Chapter 9:Best decision ever, buddy

Hayden's POV

I was laying the bed along with Valentino, who had dried tears on his cheeks and had his hand on top of my own. He usually did that when he is in hurt and right now he was in pain because of his growing teeth. I was staring at him, Grayson's features in his face. How much Valentino looked like his dad, although some people said that boys looks like their mother and girls looks like their dad. In our situation it was the other way around, and I kind of liked it because those years I was apart from Grayson I had at least someone to remind him and never let me forgot about him.

As I was looking at my baby boy memories flashed through my mind; the day he was born, the day I took him home and into my room, the first time he took his first steps, his first tooth and they day he said momma. I was so happy that day that I didn't stop kissing him. Sometimes I wondered how my life would be without him, well I knew it wouldn't be that much happy, amazing and interesting as it was now with him. He was my life. The most precious thing in my life. I would never change him for anything in the word.

I looked at the window, the moon was shining and there were stars around the blue sky. It was really hot and the sweat was running down my head. And thinking about Grayson made me sweat harder from pain, from agony and love. My heart kept beating fast and my mind was so confused. When I came home I was crying and Michaela was scared for me, because she thought I was hurt or something. When I explained what happened to her she wanted to go and hit Grayson like the best friend she was but I stopped her before doing anything stupid because Grayson was right.

I was the one to blame and not him. Grayson told me that I should had told him because he wanted to be part of Valentino's life. But I was so stupid and blind. And now I was regretting it like a fool. Because now I would have been here with Grayson living with our child happily ever after. And not crying and being heart broken because there was a possibility that Grayson will never forgive me. All the awards went to my stupidity.

I was caressing Valentino's back and pulled his hair out of his sweaty forehead. I planted a kiss on his little hand. I wished that Grayson was here with us and kissing him, hugging him and talking with me. Yeah... okay, keep dreaming.

I was pulled out of my thoughts and slightly got scared as my phone buzzed. Thanked God I had it on silent mode because it would have woken up Valentino and I had put too much effort to put him in sleep because he was a little anxious tonight. I looked at the screen and saw Ethan's name. I hit answer fast and heard his voice.

''Hey Haydo.'' He sang my nickname which made me smile. He was the best friend ever.

''Hey E.'' I was whispering.

''Why are you talking like this? Is Valentino asleep?''

''Yeah, that's why.'' I said.'' Why did you called me?''

''Oh give him a kiss from me. Well, I never asked you how it went. With Grayson I mean. I heard at some point yelling but then I slept and didn't see you.'' Ethan started bubbling.

''Yeah, we were yelling at some point. I got mad, Grayson got mad. We kind of lost it. Well I talked to him and he needs time. He doesn't know what to do, if he can forgive me.''

''It's alright. Everyone would be needing time to think about it. I am sure that he will come around at some point, because he would never live without his son. He loves you Hayden, I know it. But he needs time.'' I could feel tears but I pushed them back. I was tired of crying so I had stop it now.