♥ Lucas and Maya ♡

~ The Last Song, & Forget-Me-Nots ~ (19)

~ Maya's POV ~

I woke up with a weird sensation in my stomach. It felt...different. It felt as if my ribs were aching because it was a rainy day and I knew what day it was.

Funeral day.

I sighed to myself in content and rolled out of bed.

I couldn't do this...it already hurt too much and I wasn't even standing in a graveyard right now.

I began to look around my room. It was my last day here. I didn't know if it should've been...but it felt right. At times, some things just seem...right.

I ran my hand over the soothing red comforter and began to notice the little things.

The chipped paint by my closet.

The ceiling fan that needs re-screwing.

The flickering bathroom light that needs a new light bulb.

All the imperfections that make this room...perfect.

I made up my bed and walk towards the door, my head peeking into the halls.

Everyone was downstairs, eating.

I was scared to drop in...

I wouldn't be able to stand the pain-filled looks on their faces.

Yet, I did it anyway.

Making my way down the hall then down the steps, I inhaled sharply and cleared my head.

I can do this...

I can...

I can...

I walk in and all eyes hit me.

Suddenly, a tear escapes my eye.

I couldn't do it.

''Maya, what's wrong?" Maxx asks me, as everyone begins to watch me more intently.

A grin hits my face as I chuckled,'' Nothing...I just love you all so much.''

Eva begins to cry as well and stands up quickly, walking over to pull me into a hug.

I hold onto her tight, because it was the last time I could do so...

Maxx stands, ready to waltz over and be the brother he always is.

~ Comforting

~ Protective

~ There...

Then, it came to me...

He's only trying to love you.

I understood that, but I hold up a hand to him, pulling back from Eva.

''Don't.'' I chuckle bitterly. ''Maxx, I love you. I do, but...it's not about me anymore. After the funeral, your life is to be focused on these three beautiful ladies here in front of you. You knew them first and you loved them first. That's just the truth, okay? When I first met you I was so afraid. Wanna know why? It was because...I was so sure you were going to be just like dad. That I would make one mistake and you would leave me... I wouldn't blame you, you have such great siblings and I'm a loner.'' I laugh,'' But hold onto them, Maxx. I'm not afraid to lose you anymore, only because I know you'd be coming back to something great...''

He stares at me in a lost, but understood but pained way.

''I'm gonna go get ready.'' I announce blowing a kiss to belle and Blake.