The Art of Letting Go

One

"Happy 1st Anniversary babe!!" bati ko habang nasa harap kami ng castle ni Cinderella

Nandito kami ngayon sa Tokyo Disneyland with his little brother, Chad. and my little brother, Paul. Dito namin icecelebrate yung anniversary namin ng boyfriend ko. Sembreak kasi namin sa school kaya napag-desisyonan ng family niyang mag bakasyon sa ibang bansa kasama ako.

dito naka assign ang parents ko sa Japan dahil sa trabaho ng step father ko, so my boyfriend's family decided that it's a good thing to have a vacation here. Palipat lipat lang parents ko ng bansa kasama ang little sister ko, si Naomi. But my mother told me that she's planning to get me and my younger brother after we graduate from high school. So basically, It's only me and my little brother that lives in a big house with a maid. It's not even a problem, masaya nga actually.

"Happy 1st Anniversary din babe" sagot niya, and then he reached to grab both of my hands and kiss the back of my palm and then I felt his soft lips brushing on my soft skin

"I love you so much Chace Christopher Anderson" I whispered, searching for his eyes

"I love you so much Scarlet Faith Austin" he whispered back, meeting my eyes

It's those eyes. It's those beautiful blue eyes that drives me crazy. and he has this dark brown hair that reflected all the radiance of his smile. everything about him is perfect. He's more like a masterpiece. Not to mention the great body he has, he's every girls dream come true.

"are you hungry? kain tayo?" tanong niya, habang hawak hawak niya pa rin ang kamay ko

 I love the way he holds my hand, there's this little voice that tells me more than any love quote can tell.

"Uhmm.. Is it okay? I'm hungry kaya lang ang haba kaya ng pila. sayang yung oras" naramdaman kong hinigpitan niya yung hawak sa kamay ko kaya bigla naman akong napatingin sakanya

"Look babe, there's no time spent with you is wasted. Okay? Tsaka nagbayad tayo dito para mag enjoy. Kasama ang pagkain sa pag eenjoy at wala akong pake kung gabihin tayo dito, basta makakain ka lang" sagot niya

"You're hurting me" I protest, his hands are way too tight

"I am not"

"Oh but you are"

he closed the distance between us, coming inches from my face until he reached my ear lobe and I felt his warm breath whispering through my ear "the only way I could hurt you is by holding your hand too tight, my princess" 

I have all the things that I thought I could never have. I really love him. and this is not like the love I've had in the past. I really think this is real.. It feels so real and if this is a dream I don't want to wake up.

"I.. I'm hungry, okay lang ba kung ikaw nalang kainin ko?" bulong ko din sakanya. ha! akala niya ha

bigla naman siyang napaatras pabalik sa kinatatayuan niya kanina.

"babe..." halos hindi siya makapag salita at kitang kita ko na namumula yung mukha niya sa hiya

at bigla akong tumawa ng malakas. hahahaha ang sarap niyang tignan.

"joke lang eto naman. tara na kakain na tayo tapos sakay tayo sa splash mountain" halos hindi parin ako natatapos sa tawa ko dahil ang cute niya talaga kapag nahihiya

tumalikod na ko at hinila ko yung kamay niya papunta sa restaurant but I stopped when I felt his hands wrapping around my waist pulling me closer to him. Oh his smell, he smells so great. I bet he's wearing Acqua di gio.

"yes babe?" asking him while still laughing but is slowly fading away as I scan his face. he looks nervous and I could feel his heartbeat racing, "what's the problem? why is your heart-"

"babe. alam ko isang taon pa lang tayong dalawa at marami pa tayong dapat patunayan sa isa't isa." "hindi ko kakayanin kung mawawala ka pa sakin, at maniwala ka man o hindi, ikaw yung babaeng matagal ko ng hinihintay. hindi ako makapaniwala na maaga kang darating sa buhay ko. we're only 17, at sabi nila marami pa tayong makikilala" his eyes never leaving mine

I.. I can't speak! What is he talking about?

"but babe, wala na kong gustong makilala pa. you're the most beautiful woman I've ever met. I love you. I love how mess you can be, I love how moody you can get, how angry you can be, how hard you are to handle but who cares? I want you in my life Scarlet. God knows how much I love you." then he reached for his pocket and I saw a small red box

"Maybe one of these days magkaroon ka man ng different path, or mag away tayo and you decided to drift apart.." he opened the box in between his words, "Scarlet, hindi ako nag ppropose, nililinaw ko lang. Pero tanda ito ng pangako ko sayo, na I am here to stay. No matter what happens, I am always be right here. Because that's what a king do to his queen"

He took the ring out of the box and grab my hand to slide it on my ring finger. halos hindi ako makapag salita. lumalabo na yung mga paningin ko dulot ng mga luha na naiipon sa mga mata ko na pinipigilan kong pabagsakin dahil baka isipin ng ibang tao na pinapaiyak ako ng nasa harap ko ngayon.

"This is a promise ring, a symbol of my love, and hope between us. and I want you to wear it."

"babe, you don't have to give me this ring. it looks so elegant, feeling ko sobrang mahal neto tsaka okay lang kahit-"

I felt his hands on my cheeks causing me to stop talking and his soft lips brushing against mine. I closed my eyes and enjoy the taste of his love. The gravity of his lips are inescapable. and a warm feeling is starting to get inside of me. I feel home. I feel safe.

"You deserve every single thing in this world. do you like it?" he asked me

"I love it" and then right there my tears that I've been holding on for too long fell freely

"I knew you'd love it." he smiled, wiping my tears away from my cheeks "I hate seeing you cry"

"then don't be so sweet. I will get angry if you do that again!" I can't help but to hug him. he's too perfect for me.

"why? I can't help but to appreciate what I have, you. you're too beautiful to resist" hugging me back 

as lightly as he can because he knows how much I hate when I am being hug too tight. "Can we eat now?"

"sure" I smiled, pulling off of him

we walked hand in hand on the way to the restaurant