I leaned against the door as I heard the voices from within.
"You can't do this! We can't loose someone else!" It was JJ.
"JJ, just listen okay? I need to get away from all of this. You let harry go so why not me?" Simon? What were they talking about?
"Because I understood why for Harry but Simon I have known you for the longest, please don't leave me!" He cried.
Simon sighed. "The flights already booked."
"Then cancel it!"
"I can't! Anyway I already told Tailor."
"Well then tell her you can't go!"
"No! JJ this is MY choice!"
"Well your making the wrong one!" Their voices were becoming louder and louder.
"Look Jide, its not to get away from you or anyone else in the Sidemen. Its to have a fresh start. I will keep in contact!" Simon reasoned.
"Ohhh yeah! We can Skype everyday right? Great." He answered back sarcastically.
"You know what? Fuck you. I thought you out of all them you would understand my situation. Understand ME, support ME! But obviously not. Goodbye JJ"
The door opened in front of me and I was face to face with Simon. Tears brimmed my eyes. He was leaving? I thought we had something special? "Ethan?" I looked past him to JJ. He was staring at the back of Simon's head, sending daggers. "Where?" I choked. "What do you mean?"
"Where are you going?" He sighed and looked to the ground.
"Away."
JJ got up and walked up to me. "He's going to live in fucking America. With a girl." He gave an aggravated look to Simon before shoving past him to the hallway, we watched him walk up the stairs probably going to create another hole into his wall. I looked back to Simon.
"Who's Tailor?" He looked me directly in the eye. "Just a girl." That's when the tears fell. I had been strong through the funeral, thought all the grieving, through comforting everyone else. But I couldn't do it anymore. He had found someone else?
"Do you like her?" I sniffed. He nodded his head and looked to the floor. I couldn't do it anymore. I ran up the stairs, past Vik's bedroom, past Josh's room, past JJ's room. To the spare one. I locked the door behind me and fell to my knees. Why me?
I could hear Josh and Simon arguing and JJ banging on the door. "HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HIM?" Josh shouted.
"I DIDN'T THINK HE WOULD TAKE IT SO BADLY!" Simon snapped.
"HE LOVES YOU, YOU FUCKING DICK!!!"
"ITS MY CHOICE. NOT ANYONE ELSE'S!!"
"Well maybe think about the effect it has then." Josh growled.
Tears were now streaming. I was heaving as I looked to the window. Only one way. I crawled towards the window as JJ and Josh hollered my name. A one way street. I opened the window and wiped my wet face, the wind gushing into the room.
People below covered the slabs of pavement and pigeons flew about. I could say I support Simon but what would it do? He would still move away. What's the point.
He'll never love me anyway...
