Happanad

10.

The fault, the blame, the pain's still there.
I'm here alone inside of this broken home.Broken home by 5Sos

9th May,2016:

Areeba

Today felt different and I knew why, this day every year; like a lethal injection ,it gets stabbed into my heart and bit by bit the pain gets diluted into a dilemma of me running far away from the reality of it even existing.

Everytime I think about it, it distresses me to believe an event, a memory can cause such burden on you.

Breathing in and out I try to get rid of any sort of emotions that I knew weren't going to get me anything and entered into the school building.

The whole seating plan for our science class changed; in a way I'm relieved because I got rid of Natasha or I thought I did.

Let's just say we have been best of friends for quite a long time until the day God put me in my senses and I realised that the bitch only needed me as her little minion.

Fuck that, that's more like an insult to minions.We haven't really ended things and she thinks we are still friends but I know that bítch is capable of loving herself and herself only.

On the other hand,I'm going to be a dumbass each lesson from now on until I learn my new location of settlement.Which is why I hate changing where I sit plus it's just too much effort, and I'm lazy so it really doesn't work.

Josiah is in my science class and so is Reece and Laura.Usually the teacher lets us be with whoever we like for practical work.

Laura and Reece are always together which makes want to just sit there and 'aww' at them all day long.

Josiah sometimes joins me and Natasha but Natasha being Natasha, thinks that Josiah likes her.Which I think is completely false.

However if I go up to her and tell her that she's wrong, she'll think that I'm interested in Josiah which will cause more chaos.See what I'm stuck in the middle of.

Our science teacher, Miss Lewinsky, called out my name in the register followed by the name of the person I'm going to sit next to.

"Areeba will go next to..."She looked over to a sheet of paper on her desk carrying all of the students name."...Luke."

I made my way to the new seat,placing my bum cheeks on the stool and faced over to Luke who was unpacking his pencil case and planner along with his book and gave him a genuine smile in which he returned.

Luke was 10 times more better than Natasha and like I spoke too quickly Miss Lewinsky pointed Natasha at my direction indicating her to take a seat next to me.

Life, what an intriguing life, why do you have to suck so badly.

I avoided all contact with her and placed my things on the table and patently waited for Miss Lewinsky to finish saying the last few names from the register.

"Areeba I need to talk to you about something later."Natasha says in a plastic tone.

"Umm..sure."I reply back with a fake smile.

She smiles back and faces the wall projecting the PowerPoint presentation on our new topic.

I have to admit, I did have feelings for Luke a while back only to figure out he was interested in Frances.She was the perfect choice for him, chestnut coloured hair, green eyes; that matched his in a beautiful harmony.

While being in a situation where I was interested, the two of them talking always got to me somehow whether it was little smiles between the two or Luke protecting her from the stares that the other guys gave her.