Happanad

15.2

I couldn't sleep.Twisting and turning in my bed, I couldn't get the complicated day I spent out of my head.Sitting up, I pushed myself back and placed my head beside the bed.

Conflicted, I pierced at the sealing, moving  my leg back and forth from one place to another in pure frustration.

I nodded to myself before getting out the room leaving Tayeba who was snoring loudly in the bottom bunk bed.And this time not forgetting to grab my phone.

The sound of her snoring was as loud as her shouting if not more.She received me with a hug when I arrived back home.Sania went home because her mum called so I didn't see her when I came into the house.

Tayeba shouted for 10 minutes straight stating the fact that I should've told her the whole Lucian story and how she had to get most of it from Sania after I left for the park.

After letting her anger out, she said that Mama also called from Saudi asking about me and she had to told a lie saying Sania and I went out.

I owe her my life if not more.She's always  been there for me no matter what.However there are things that I'd want to keep her out of.It's my war to fight not hers, I can't let her get involved in this.

Stepping down the last step on the stairs, I made my way to the kitchen.Scooping up a clean glass from the drying rack, I sat down on a chair filling the glass up with water.

The ice chilled water went down the Sahara desert that is my throat and eased my thirst.

I got up and made my way to the sofa.Not to sit on but to push it forward.Thankfully the sofa didn't create noise otherwise Tayeba would've stormed down to question what the hell was I up to.

There was a box underneath the sofa.Aha!!I put it there years ago and now felt like a time to go back to it.

Grabbing a firm hold onto it with both of my hands causing my phone to press underneath it, I made my way down the stairs to sit down in the room next to our garage.Switching the light one,I moved on top of the sofa and stared at the very normal looking box.

It wasn't special looking, just a wooden jewellery box I bought in Pakistan when I went years ago.On the top, it had little flowers and leaves craved in the centre making the wood appear lighter.With my right hand, I wiped the dust off and rubbed my hands on the sofa.

CHICKNEY HAAT were one thing but GHANDAY HAAT WERE A MUCEEBAT.Aay Hay!!

Opening the box, I glanced at the letter that was given to me right after Lucian left.From bari muceebat himself.

It's exhausting and at the same time normal to go on a memory lane about him.I've thought of it so many times, that it doesn't effect me anymore but also every time I feel weak.Exhausted from going back over the same thing.

Instead of rereading the letter, I marched up the stairs and gathered all the petals and picked up the note from today.Once again, making my way down the stairs, I entered back into the room and placed everything in my hands into the box.

I shut it closed, the box and then the door and sat back down, hands pressed over my eyes.Soon after, a vibrating sound made the whole sofa vibrate within, making me alarm.Furrowing my eyebrows, I looked at the I.D and it was no other than Josiah.

My thumb was about to press the green sign when the thought of avoiding him came in view and so, instead, I pressed the decline sign.

It wasn't the best decision, my heart ached but now wasn't the time to listen to my heart.It's finally time to use my brain for some good.And you know your brain is newly functioning properly because you just insulted it yourself.Like right now!!!