Humane (Liam Payne)

Chapter 34 ~ Parker

Chapter 34 ~ Parker

I know I don’t have long before Liam tries to come after me, so I get in my car and drive to his apartment to pack my bags. I don’t know where I’ll stay; I have no place to go. I call Niall when I get there and as soon as he answers he knows what’s wrong.

“Are you okay?” He asks, and I sniffle when I step inside.

“No,” I sob. “Can I come and stay with you?”

“Of course, come over as soon as you can. I’ll text you the address.”

“Thank you.” I hang up, and I hear the door opening, signaling that Liam is home. I slam my bedroom door, and just as I am about to lock it, Liam opens the door, his eyes red rimmed.

“Please don’t leave.” He begs me, but the pain is too much. I can’t handle what he said. Whether he meant to or not, he just released a bomb and I don’t know how to deactivate it. I ignore him, shoving clothes and all everything in sight into a duffel bag. I turn to leave the room but he catches me by my wrist and makes me look him in the eye. “We can work this out. Everything will be okay. Just don’t leave, please.”

I shake my head. “I’m sorry, Liam.” I pull free from his grasp and go to the kitchen. When I’m in the small hallway Liam comes and pushes me against the wall, causing the duffel bag to be dropped to the floor. His lips meet mine, and he tries to open my mouth. It takes everything I have not to kiss him back, not to run my fingers through his short hair.

“Kiss me back.” Liam pleas, but I can’t. I’m too embarrassed, too mortified to be around him right now. I need to leave and sort it all out.

I knew when I first kissed Liam that this would happen, that there were things I had to deal with in order to be with him—and that’s what I want—but I never thought it would be like this. It’s so much more painful than I could imagine.

I pull back and turn my head so he can’t kiss me again. When I meet his eyes, he silently begs me to stay. “You can’t kiss me and expect it to be okay. It doesn’t change anything.” At my words, Liam bowed his head and dropped his arms from the wall where he was holding me. I breathe heavily and try not to cry again.

“I’ll be staying with Niall.” I tell him. I wasn’t going to let him think I was going on the streets again. I was never going back there.

“You’re making a mistake. I can help you through this, you don’t have to deal with this alone, Parker.” He didn’t meet my eyes, and I wanted so badly to go to him and jump into his arms, but I can’t ignore what he did, purposely or not.

I didn’t answer him; I just left him alone in the hallway. As soon as the door clicked shut I broke down. As I was walking to my car I sobbed, out of humiliation, anger, but most of all because of the pain in my chest. I hadn’t even left his apartment five minutes ago, and I’m already miserable without him. He was my safety net, but this time he let me fall, he let me hit the ground, and now I can’t get up.

When I check my phone, I already have three missed calls from Liam and the promised text from Niall. I ignore Liam’s calls and follow the address to Niall’s place. When the engine roars to life, I turn up the stereo and put in my CD by The Script. It’s so loud I can’t even hear myself think. That’s what I want though; I don’t want to let myself change my mind. I’m not ready to face the hate or the comments that break my walls.

By the time I’m knocking on Niall’s door, my phone is off. It wouldn’t stop buzzing so I turned it off and put in my pocket. The tears have dried and I know I look like shit. Niall swings the door open to reveal himself, Zayn and Louis, and pulls me in his arms. He smells good, so I bury my face deeper into his shirt. Zayn and Louis come in on my left and right, so I’m in the middle of the three. I can’t cry anymore. I have run out of tears and I just want to get my mind off of everything.