You had me at Hello.

Chapter 30

"Hey, what's up?"
We had just gotten back to the hotel room after  the little tour.
"Nothing, I'm fine."
"No you're not, you're pacing ."
I had somehow developed this habit when I was freaking out inside.

I didn't reply.

"Baby, what's wrong." She wasn't going to give up that's one of the many things I love about her. Plus I knew it was genuine when she called me baby.

"Okay, if you really want to know, I'm worried that someone is going to charm you and you'll leave me."

I blurted out, all the words jumbled together.

"What makes you think that? You are the only person I have eyes for. Nobody will ever be as charmingly awkward as you."

"Hannah, I was one of those super fans. I'd have done anything to get there attention."

Hannah stood up and went over to her bag in the corner of the room pulled out a notebook and pen.

"Come here." Hannah said

"What?"

"Come here." Hannah said a bit more firm. I did.

"Sit." I did

I kinda like this side of Hannah.

"I want you to write down everything you even remotely dislike about yourself. Or at least ten."

I looked at Hannah confused.

"Just do it ya cheesecake, I'll be walking around outside, text me when your done."

I spent a good twenty minutes just staring at that blank page. Knowing what I needed to write but not wanting to write it. Until finally I began the list.

1. I'm not able to trust. completely.
2. I think I'm fat and ugly.
3.I fall too easily.
4. My anxiety.
5. My depression.
6. My abandonment issues.
7. My Bipolar Disorder.
8.My fear of love.
9. I'm afraid of failing.

I paused before writing the last one

10. I'm gay.

I picked up my phone and walked over to the bed to call Hannah.

"Hey, I'm done with the list."
"Okay, I'll be right up."
"Okay."

I stood up and began pasing. a few seconds later Hannah walked in. She walked right over too the notebook ripped out the page, and handed it to me.

"Shred it."

"What?"

"Rip it up."  I tore it in half, then half again, and again.

"Everything that you wrote on that paper isn't you Bethany. you are more than that. You are what you make of yourself. You aren't fat and ugly. You are not defined by your anxiety and depression. Your bipolar disorder is NOT you," I hadn't realized that I dropped my head unit I heard a crack in her voice. My head shot up. I wiped away her tears with the pads of my thumbs.
"I want you to know that I love you no matter what Bethany, nothing is going to change that. I love you because you're smart and you don't put people down. You see the best in people."

"Now, what do you say we order room service and watch a dirty movie because you promised sex remember."

I smiled.

"I never promised, I said maybe."

"Yeah well same thing."

"Not really." I replied grinning

Hannah frowned.

"You're adorable when you don't get your way."

"Stop it! I'm trying to be intimidating."

"It's not working, if anything its working in your favor."

"Oh really?" 

"Oh yeah."  I plopped backwards putting both hands behind my head and stared at the ceiling. smiling.  I looked down at my feet only to see Hannah's ocean blue eyes turned a lusty grey.
I was prepared this time.

Hannah quickly began tearing off each article of clothing. Taking an article off herself between mine. Saving my pants and underwear for last. She finally lowered me down onto the bed.
I could feel myself becoming  more sensitive with each touch. Hannah started placing small bites from behind my ear trailing alone my jaw line to the top of my left breast.
I let out a soft moan, wanting more.

She paused.

"Don't stop."

"I thought you didn't want sex? Besides, I kinda like it when you beg." She smirked.

I tried lifting my arms in an attempt to pull her closer. Instead I found my hands above my head being pressed down by the smaller, but much stronger girl, our faces inches apart.

"Wanna try that again sugar tits?"

I swallowed hard.

"And if I do?"

"You'll have to be punished."
I tried

"Someone wants to be spanked, don't they?" 
I was quickly flipped over onto Hannah's lap

My heart rate quickened. Before I could even react. a sharp pain had made itself known right in the center of my right butt cheek.

I tried to stifle a moan but it still managed to escape, louder than expected.

"Good girl, now I want you to lie on your back and relax. I'll take care of everything."

I did as I was told.

Her fingers had found themselves in my womanhood.

I inhale sharply, pleasure racking my body.

The pressure in my stomach was building with each thrust. I grabbed two fist fulls of bed sheet before succumbing to the pleasure.

"That's it, good job. Just let me take care of you."

This made me want it again.

"Oh my god. That was amazing!"

"Who said we were done?"

I felt as though I was on the verge of a heart attack.

"I...can't...." Before I could find the last word a hand was forcibly pushed against my mouth.

"I'm not done with you yet."

I swallowed.

(A/N  boy this was a doosey to write... I literally could not stop blushing. It got to the point where people were asking if I was okay...

Lesson learned. Do not write smut in public.  Anyway.I spoke with an admission person for Job Corp. And I CAN BRING MY PHONE!!!

I'm going to be very busy though so I don't know how much I'll be able to update. But hey at least I'm trying. Love you guys you all deserve happiness.

XOXO )