I've been so upset for almost a month now. Yeah... I guess it really had been that long since you got so busy. It feels like longer. But whatever. That's not important for this. What is important is that I haven't been what you deserve. I've been showing so much of my pain. And my fear. And my heartbreak. But not anymore.
From now on I promise to try not to feel all this hurt. I'll try to be strong like I always am. I'll try to smile so if you ever come back to be, you'll be able to come back to something worth it. Something that isn't as selfish as I have been. Something that can't be sad or make you feel bad. I'll do everything I can. I just have to grin and bear it. Stick to the song. "I'm not afraid of pain or the things it implies but I'm still not strong I'm just staying alive..." I won't be afraid of the pain that being without you brings. I'll try not to be anyway. I'll smile and I'll be ok for you! I'm not strong for that. I'm just forcing myself to smile. So that I can really just stay alive...
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To You, Who I May Never See
NonfiksiIf I fall into the real world, I'll be alone... If I fall into the nightmares, I'll be in eternal pain but I won't have to miss you... In the end, my two choices are really very similar. Only in one, I'll still see you. So tell me. Do I fall into a...
