Learning to love you...

Chapter #12: Fireworks

"I'm so tired." Jin said and collapsed onto the chair that was beside him as you nodded. 

"We bought way too many things.." You trailed and sat beside him. 

"You wanna go back to the apartment." Jin asked you nodded. 

"Can we? I'm fine with continuing shopping, honestly. But you look too tired." You said as he smiled.

"Let's tag along a little longer because apparently there's gonna be fireworks tonight." He said as your eyes widened. 

"F-Fireworks?" You stuttered in shock as Jin frowed his eyebrows. Since a young age, you've been terrified of fireworks. When you say that your scared of fireworks, everyone laughs at you for being silly.

"How can someone possibly be scared of fireworks!? You're so weird, WTF?"

"You are scared of what? Fireworks? What the actual hell!?" 

"But they're so pretty!!"

"You should try to overcome it by watching them! Who knows, it might actually help you!"

Were some of the responses you always get when you revealed your fear against fireworks. 

"Why? Are you scared of fireworks?" Jin placed his words carefully as you slowly nodded, afraid if his responses would be among the usual responses.

"Oh, then, let's just go back to the apartment. When it starts, I'll be there for you since the sound still comes through." He said as you turned around to face him sharply. He was smiling and through that smile you could see how hurt he was. Maybe he really likes them... 

"No, it's fine. Let's watch it." You said as he shook his head.

"C'mon, I'm not going to let you do something that scares you. If you're saying that for my sake, then don't because anything that'll hurt you, I don't want to do it." He said and stood up. You gulped as soon as he was done, trying not to tear up. Why does he even care? Sure, we're married and all, but why? 

*

The walk back to the apartment was something. It wasn't awkward, it was just... very... quiet. Jin's hands were constantly trying to hold yours but he didn't. 

"I'm gonna take a nap." You said and rubbed your forehead as it began to hurt.

"Okay." Jin smiled and sat on the couch in the living room.

"Aren't you gonna take a nap?" You asked and blushed at how straight-forward that question actually was.

"I mean, you said you were tired and all, that's why I asked." You tried to explain.

"Do you want to take one together, then?" He asked seeing your uncomfortable state.

"Can we?"

*

You changed into your most convenient PJs and climbed inside the bed only to face Jin, whose eyes were wide open. Then you had realized how close you both were. You didn't want make it awkward, so you just closed your eyes and pretended to sleep. 

In all honesty, you didn't really want to sleep. You were tired, yeah, but you weren't that tired that you wanted to sleep. Then suddenly: 

BOOM

The fireworks exploded, startling you. Your eyes shot wide open and tears began to form immediately. 

"Shh, it's okay. Everything is fine, I'm here to protect you, Y/N." Jin said sweetly in your ears as he moved as close to you as possible and cuddled with you. 

You didn't resist his support. Instead, you placed your hands against his chest and quietly sobbed while he was stroking your hair to soothe you. It didn't actually work so he began singing: (A/N: This song is Christina perri's One night for those who want to know the song's title! :D)

I feel the way you want me,
 I see that you are lonely,
 If you could, I know you'd leave with me,
 It's more than curiosity,
 And I've never longed for winter,
 Until your presence made me shiver,
 Untethered you'd be better if you'd only come with me,

  One night I will be the moon,
 Hanging over you,
 Spilling all over your body,
 Covering all your wounds,
 One night I will be the star,
 Falling where you are,
 Swimming in the deep of my love,
 Filling your empty heart,
 One night, one night, one night,
 One night, one night, one night 

You didn't hear anything other than Jin's soothing voice taking in charge of covering up the firework sounds and you were very thankful for it. Before you knew it, you were deep asleep.

Kim Seok Jin:

As soon as the fireworks started, her eyes opened wide. I could see the fear in her eyes. She was looking at me like I was her last hope in their entire world that has been sent to protect her. I felt that way as well, so I scooted over to her side. I didn't care about my promise of not touching her until she feels comfortable. I wanted to protect her. I needed to protect.

As soon as she had realized that I was cuddling her, she cuddled back, making butterflies erupt in my stomach. Even after cuddling, she was shivering like crazy and the way she looked at me, it killed me. If that look of hers were to be put in words it would be 'Jin, please do something. I'm very scared'. 

So I began to sing. A song that represented how I felt about Y/N.

Soon enough, she fell asleep in my arms, forgetting about the fireworks. My hands began to hurt a bit, but I didn't dare to move because, I love her already that I'm scared when I move, she's going to move away. 

***.***

Damn dude, Jin is like... wow... I don't even know anymore >.<

But then guys... I'm very upset with the recent news with BTS... what is happening guys? They were doing so well? Is these because of their popularity? Getting disrespected in variety shows and being pushed/pulled around in airports... is that what we all wanted? 

I want the boys to be safe so please guys, give them space. Respect them, they are HUMANS too. Please see and treat them as one. Thanks.