What If?

Hurt

        As I drove home I thought about what I was going to tell my dad I mean I've never lied to him but i'm not so sure he will be very understanding when it comes to this.

   What kind of parent would be okay with their kid blowing off an important meeting to chase after a boy.
  
    After thinking about it while driving through town I finally figured out what I would tell him. I would tell him the truth well, part of it at least, I would tell him that I took a wrong turn and got distracted by the shops in town.

      I convinced myself that it was a good idea as I pulled into my driveway. I looked up at what would be described as a beautiful modern home with glass windows that seemed to stretch on forever and stone columns that gave the house a certain characteristic about it.
 
   The modern technology on the outside was nothing compared to the electronic system inside what I mean by that is you can control everything with the touch of a button. Stove, lights, shower,  anything you can think of you could use the iPad to turn it on but to me this was just my home nothing other than that.

      I peered through the windows in my dad's office trying to see where he was as I walked up the path from the driveway to the door. I stopped on the porch breathing in and out deeply before opening the door and walking through the hallways towards the living room. If he wasn't in his office he was taking a break in the living room watching some type of sport or other.

     As I got closer I heard a women's voice laughing loudly. Of course I just assumed that it was a client until I rounded the corner and saw the women sitting in my dad's lap and pressing her lips against him.

  I was so shocked by the scene I dropped my purse on the ground causing my dad to jump up off the couch making the women fall off his lap with an "oof" sound.

    "Alessandra what are you doing home?"  My dad asked clearly flustered.

    I stood there with my mouth open for a couple minutes occasionally opening and closing it until I was able to form a proper sentence.
 
"What is this women doing here? And why is she throwing herself all over you?" I asked him with my arms crossed appalled by the sleazy women sitting on our couch with her head hung low in shame.

    "Alessandra! How dare you question me and treat our guest like that! I raised you better than that young lady." My father said while rubbing his temples and apologizing to the women on the couch for my behavior.

    "Do not apologize on my behalf because I am not sorry!" I suddenly got teary eyed realizing he had broke our promise. "What happened to always telling each other everything! I have always told you the truth dad and now you bring some women into our home without even mentioning her to me once! No wonder you wanted me to leave so quickly this morning!" I screamed at him with tears rolling down my face.

      My dads face suddenly softened up once he realized the damage he caused but it was already to late. You see after my mom abandoned us my dad was terrified of raising a girl. He thought I would be a troublesome teen who could only be taught right by a mother but when I was growing up I made him a promise.

  I promised that I would always tell him everything and I mean everything. Crushes on boys, period problems and so much more and that's why my father and I have always been close in return he promise he would always tell me the truth now he has broken that promise and he can't undo it.

        "Allibear, please don't cry come here." He said while trying to pull me in for a hug.

      I pushed him away and ran up the stair to my bedroom. I slammed my door and through myself onto my bed. I laid there crying and wondering why he did this to me before realizing that I shouldn't be feeling sorry for myself. I got out of bed fixing my hair and clothes quickly before climbing out the window and heading over to my car.

  I had never sneaked out of the house before then again my father has never lied to me before so I guess there is a first for everything.

       I sped down the street unsure of where I was going until I thought of the perfect place to go. I checked the time which read six thirty meaning it was too early to go meet Ares which was perfect since I had somewhere else in mind first. I drove through town for the third time today this time to my friend Jessie's house. 

       Jessie was another one of my childhood friends. He was the cute boy next door who also happened to be annoying and pervy. I grew up with him annoying me everyday and soon developed feelings which is when I discovered he was gay. I of course supported him and he has been one of my closest friend since then.

        I pulled up the stone driveway and parked my car. Jessie was lucky enough to be out of his parents house and living on his own although I doubt that's how he see's it. Jessie's parent's helped him buy his new home as soon as he turned seventeen and they found out about his sexuality. They wanted to get as far away from him as possible. How awful is that?

      As I got closer to Jessie's door I tried to wipe away the tears from my face before he could see them but it was too late. It was like Jessie's best friend sense's were tingling because he flung open the door and rushed over to me without even knowing that I was going to be coming over. He took one look at me and wrapped his gentle arms around me dragging me into the house and over to his living room.

    "What's wrong doll?" Jessie asked while handing me a glass of water.

    "It's kind of a long story." I said while taking a sit of the water and tucking my legs under myself.

     "I have time... well a little bit of time. Jeremy will be here soon but it's a great thing! You'll finally get to meet him! Anyway spill the beans Missy." Jessie said while leaning forward waiting for me to respond.

      "Well first of all my day has been crazy. It started out as some chase for a mysterious boy and ended in my dad betraying me..." I finished telling Jessie what had happened today with a sigh of relief it felt good getting things off my shoulders.

       "Woah Allibear sounds like you had a rough day." Jessie said while pulling me closer to him and hugging me tightly. "But Allie i'm sure your dad was just trying to protect you. It's probably really hard on him trying to find someone after your mom left and raising you meant he had no time to date but now that you are going off to college he will be all alone Al."

        "I didn't even think about it like that. I guess you're right it's not fair of me to be selfish especially when I am about to leave him all alone." I said while looking down at my hands god i'm such a horrible daughter.

         "Now tell me more about this mysterious boy? Was he super cute? How did you meet him?" Jessie asked while leaning forward and batting his eyelashes dreamily.

          "Well I told you that I had bumped into him on my way to the college meeting. Anyway he was beyond gorgeous. His icy blue eyes seemed to look into my soul whenever I looked into them causing me to fall into a trance and his gorgeous rough facial hair and hard jaw line were softened by his soft lips and his delicate eyes." I said while starring off into the distance imagining his face close to mine once again.

          "Girl if you don't go and meet him tonight then I will. He sounds so fine...." Jessie began to say before being interrupted by a voice coming from the other room.

           "Who's fine?" The voice from the other room asked as he came around the corner and leaned against the door frame.

            "You are handsome! I was just telling Alessandra all about you! Allie this is Jeremy the man of my dreams and Jay this is Allie one of my truest friends." 

            I shook Jeremy's hand politely before sitting back down on the couch in the living room. Time seemed to fly by as Jeremy told me all about his trips to Europe and Africa. I was so fascinated and wrapped up in what he was saying that I barely noticed that it was seven forty until I got a notification on my phone flashing the time up at me quickly.

            I jumped up and rushed over to the door. I apologized for leaving in such a hurry giving each of them a hug before heading out the door and rushing over to my car. I shoved the key in the ignition and floored the gas pedal heading towards the town. I wasn't sure what had come over me to make me want to go meet Ares but I knew two things for sure. One I needed answers and two I was going to make him give them to me.