Not Alone For Long

Chapter 19

Sorry guys I haven't updated in a while. I've been through so much these past couple weeks.

Harry's POV

I left Cat in the bathroom and made my way to my mum's one. Sure it was smaller but it was still nice. I smiled as I thought about her. Not my mum of course, just Cat. Everything about her made my heart race. Of course I would never show that on the outside but still, it was nice to finally have that person in your life that can do that.

I stripped myself and stepped into the warm water that I had turned on a few minutes ago. The heat seeped into my aching muscles and calmed me already jumpy nerves.

What was I going to say to her? How long was I going to have to wait until I could actually man up and ask her out? Or at least how she feels? It's weird that I've literally only known her for like two days and yet I'm already thinking this. My dad used to tell me that you'll know when you like someone because you are automatically drawn to them. Well that's what he said before he left.

I couldn't keep torturing my mind like this so I turned the heat up hoping that if the shower got hot enough, it would not only soothe my muscles but it would be able to go deeper and soothe my heart. As girly as that sounds.

After what seemed like forever, I decided to step out of the shower and go see if Cat was in my room. I wrapped a towel around myself cause being the dumb ass that I am, decided not to bring clothes in with me. Maybe I could run in there really quick and grab some and run out. I would probably look insane but whatever.

I quickly opened the door and ran in really not paying attention to my surroundings. I had glanced at the bed as quickly as I could and didn't see her there so I assumed she was in the bathroom still. Well guess what? I was so damn wrong.

Within seconds I had collided with her. Both of us falling to the ground in a thump. And of course both of us were only wearing towels.

It took me a few seconds of flopping on the floor like and idiot to realize how to untangle ourselves.

Both of us stood up as quickly as possible but apparently Cat had forgot to hold on to her towel because standing in front of me with a rather horrified look on her face was a completely naked Cat.

I didn't want to stare although believe me with her body I could, so I glanced away. Unable to hide the blush and a tiny smirk that had crept onto my face.

This was going to be an awkward night.

Cat's POV

Embarrassing was an understatement. When I had looked down and realized that I was completely naked, I died a little inside.

I practically leaped for the towel that was currently covering the floor, rather than me. I secured it as tightly as I could around myself and coughed awkwardly. Attempting to let Harry know that I was decent to look at. He turned around with red still tainting his cheeks.

"I uh.... You know... I'm.. sorry," He finally finished. Slouching his head down in defeat.

"It's... it's alright, it was partially my fault too..." I tried to make it seem like everything was, you know, some what normal but I was failing so miserably.

"I'm gonna just go and let you change here.... I have to grab some of my clothes first.... I'll knock next time." And with that he went to his drawer, pulled out his clothes and left the room.

As quick as I could I changed into the clothes he left me and then went for the bathroom. I searched around until I found what I was looking for. Harry's razor...

Normally, I would feel bad but it was a cheap disposable one and he wouldn't miss it. Just like I had done so many times before, I carefully too the metal blades out of the plastic casing and began to cut away the embarrassment, ugliness and pure worthlessness that tainted my very skin like a scar. Like the many scars that reminded me of that daily.

I cut cause I was so embarrassed. He had seen me at my most vulnerable and I felt like trash for that. I felt humiliated and the only way I knew how to get rid of those feeling was to cut them out of me.

His sink began to change from an ivory white to a dark red then to a link as I turned the sink on. Washing away the evidence of my copping I guess you could say. My mind was almost at an ease when a knock echoed the through out the bathroom.... Harry.

Sorry for not updating in forever and sorry if there are any spelling errors. For those of you concerned. I, Julia, have taken over the fanfic because Brie is just too busy. Which is perfectly ok and understandable, I wish her the best. As for me, I had like basically like this guy for like 5 years now and recently he was showing a liking in me, holding my hand and doing all that cutesy stuff that couples do. Then he tells me yesterday that he likes me but he doesn't see a future with me. That he wants to be friends and he's going to college and there's no point. I'm sorry if some of the chapters are disturbing to you but this is how I'm trying to channel the depression other than cutting. Yes for those of you who may actually know me, like Megan, I do cut. and I'm sorry don't think any less of me.... Please... so yeah that's my story and thank you if you actually took the time to read. Im an absolute mess right now... soo yeah...

Ill update as soon as possible next... I love you all to death

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