Seduce to kill (Book 1 in the Gods Series)

Who is my heart aching for ?

Chapter 30

I opened my eyes and quickly shut them, the light blinded and stung my them. My head is thumping, as I open my eyes again, slowly this time. I realise that Im lying face down on grass. I sit myself up quickly and look around, taking in my surroundings, there are trees behind me leading to a forest and a beautiful ocean in front of me.

Where am I ? I thought, I can't remember anything, my heart starts thumping, as panic set in, why cant I remember anything? the wheels of my brain are finally starting to  turn, I can't remember, I can't even remember my own name. How did I even get here? I'm in full panic mode now as my heart starts to thump wildly,  I look around for any clues to how and why I ended up here, I can't find anything, not even the smallest clue, to who or where I am.

                                                I look down at my clothes and find I'm in a white summers dress, it has thin white straps, with three button on the chest going down in a line, its tight fitting to the end of my stomach and then flares out slightly and ends at my knees, I have white wedge sandals on, I have know jewellery I can see, except for a white gold chain with a stone attached to it, I briefly look at it, and let it drop from my hand, it doesn't hold any answers to my questions.

                                          I have know bag, which means I have no i.d., know money, I have nothing. I get up from the ground and start walking, I stop for a minute and stretch myself, my body is aching and so is my head. I try to remember something, anything, but it just makes the ache in my head throb more. I don't even know where to start looking, I can feel tears build in my eyes, but I hold them back, how can I not remember anything, I don't even know where I am or who I am? surely someone will recognize me, mabey someone will look for me when they realise I'm gone.

                                               I start walking towards a path that I see at the end of the trees. None of this seems familiar, I feel like I'm forgetting something really important to me, I can feel my heart ache for something or someone, like Im not complete, mabey Im going crazy, feeling like this, or am I holding onto anything that could help me remember. I walked along the path for another fifteen minutes, taking in everything, hoping something will trigger my memory, but nothing does, it just leaves me more frustrated than before.

                                      The path has brought me to a small but beautiful town. The houses are beautiful, simple but beautiful, with gardens full of flowers, as children run around chasing each other. The town has a homely but safe feel to it, hopefully someone here will recognise me. I walk past a shop window but stop when I see a large antique mirror on show. It was strange, It was like seeing myself for the first time, in a way it is, I don't remember what I look like before. Staring back at me was a young woman, with beautiful dark red blood wavy hair, my eyes stood out the most do, they were an unusual colour, they looked like the colour of amber, I have a small button nose, perfectly straight, full red lips and perfect white teeth, I know I am tall, over 6ft in my wedges, I have a full chest that fits the shape of my body, I have a small curvey waist and long legs, I look again taking it all in.

         I started walking again and find myself standing, looking out at the ocean, as the breeze whips my hair around gently. It is a beautiful view, its peaceful to look at, it's calming me slightly and I'm trying to calm the constant panic that is running through me and stops my mind asking question after question that I have know answers too. I don't know how long I am standing their, til I hear someone coming up behind me, I can't make sense of it in my head, to why I hear the persons heart beat thumping in their chest, as if its my own heart beat and I can hear every shallow breath they take, everything gets so loud the closer they come, I try blocking it out, pushing the sound to the back of my mind, I feel like Im going crazy, til I hear someone clear their voice and all the noise disappears.

                                         I turn around and find a young man about twenty two or three, standing behind me, he has black short messy hair, dark blue eyes and full lips. He is tall, about 6ft 4. He is wearing a white tight t shirt showing off his muscles and dark blue jeans tucked into boots. Something in my head said he s human, but I don't know why I would think that, I'm human what else could I or he be, except for human. But something inside me is telling me something different, but I ignore it, things are scary as they are without adding that to everything.

"Hi, you look a little lost, are you okay?" he asked.

"Honestly, know, I'm not okay, I woke up near the forest, with know memory of how I got there, what's worse is I don't remember anything!" I told him.

He looked a little shocked by my answer, as his eyebrows scrunched together for a minute, he is very attractive, but it doesn't do anything for me, he doesn't make my heart beat faster, and again I feel like my heart is aching for someone.

"Okay, when you say you can't remember anything, do you just mean how you got there or you don't remember anything at all" he asked.

"I don't remember anything and that includes remembering anything about myself, I don't know who I am, where I come from, how I got here, I don't remember anything about my life" I said, with my voice starting to shake.

"Its okay don't panic, I'm sure someone around might know you, I'm sure you will have someone searching for you" he said with a reassuring smile.

"I hope your right" I said.

"How about I get you something to drink and eat, you must be hungery and then we can start seeing if anyone knows you" he said.

"Okay, thank you so much" I said giving him my first smile today, he looked a bit dazed at me for a minute, before he looked away with a slight blush on his face.

Please let him find someone that knows me, I chanted in my head, I need to know who I am, even better, who my heart aching for.