Seduce to kill (Book 1 in the Gods Series)

My mate, My love, My life

Chapter 33

After dinner, I pretended to be tired, I couldn't pretend to be as happy as him about our date. I was only going so he will back off after and leave me alone. I got into the shower and changed for bed. I grabbed the books I brought home from the library and started on the one that that explains ancient symbols. I only got a third of the way through before my eyes started to close. I gave up for the night, closed the book, put it on my locker and turned off my light. I gave into my bodies and let sleep take me. I tossed and turned all night, my body was aching for something or someone, like I was missing a part of me, sometimes it feels like I am feeling someone else emotion, I sometimes get such an overwhelming feelings of loss and love, as if they were my own, sometimes the feelings hit me so hard, it stops me in my track, nights are always the worst.

          I woke up cuddling my pillow, its Saturday I thought, I have been looking forward to a lie in all week, but my stomach turned when I remembered I have a date with James tonight. After twenty minutes of been lazy, I got up and dragged myself into my shower. I looked through my wardrobe for something to wear, I put on a navy tracksuit bottoms, a white and navy stripped tank top and my navy and white high tops. I looked for something to wear for tonight, but I couldn't find any thing dressy. All I have are casual, plain and boring clothes, that James picked up for me a couple of days after he found me. I didn't care at the time because I thought someone would look for me, that I would be found by now.

                                 I don't know what my style use to be but I don't think I was this plain and boring. That's it, I thought, Im going shopping alone, while James is at work. At least this way I can look at clothes properly and decide what I like, and not what someone else likes. These clothes aren't me, I don't feel comfortable in them.

         The bus stop from James house is only a ten minutes walk, I left the house slamming the door behind me, and made my way to the bus stop, I only had to wait fifteen minutes before the bus came. I got on, paid the bus driver and sat down. I looked out the window, watching the surrounding pass by me, the longer I stay here, the less it feels like home, after last night I feel it more now than ever, that I don't belong here, This place is too normal and I'm far from the normal, plain and boring girl James thinks I am, last night proved that, when my body's instincts took over and I killed that man with flames that came from my hand. I feel more powerful since then, like something inside is building and begging to be released. Its like an itch I can't scratch, I'm afraid of what I am capable of, and that's what scares me the most, I know Im not human, but if I'm not, what am I?. I feel the bus slow to a stop, ripping me from my thoughts, I didn't even realise I was already here. I got off the bus and gave the driver a smile. I walked toward the mall, looking at all the clothes displayed in the shop windows, til I found the perfect shop.

                          Before I knew what I was doing, I was already in the shop looking at dress after dress, til I found the perfect one, it's a tight fitting, black maxi dress with silver spirals going up the side of my waist to my chest, its strapless and has silver thread running thought the top of it, it fit like a second skin at the top, the bottom half is chiffon material that flares out slightly, the front of the dress is short and starts above my knee, but gets longer at the sides til its reaches floor length at the back. I looked around the shop for the perfect shoes to match, til I found them, I pick up beautiful silver sandals, they have two thin straps at the toes, with white stones, and a small strap that wraps around my ankle with white stones aswell. I grabbed the shoes and dress, and brought them to the counter to pay for them. I went into the shop next door in search for some makeup,  I don't even own lip gloss, how sad is that. I pick up everything I needed and a curling wand, after I finished paying for everything, I made my way back towards the bus stop, with a smile on my face, happy with everything I got. I saw the bus coming to a stop and I started running towards it, I don't want to wait another twenty minutes for the next one. When I got off at the bus stop, I started walking towards the house, I saw James walking towards me with a big smile, uh,