time to begin [n.h]

eighteen; lies

I like Liam.

I like Liam.

I continue saying to myself while walking through the office, carrying an iPad (Simon’s) and a Starbucks coffee (also Simon’s).

I like Liam.

Why can’t I just convince myself that I like hi- shit. I drop the iPad to the floor, thanking Simon in my head that he has a case for it and spill the coffee slightly on me but mostly on the other person. I look up. It’s Liam. Speak of the devil. Okay Liam’s not a devil. He’s more like an angel which is exactly why I feel so bad about the Niall thing.

“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry!” I say, picking up the iPad but ignoring the coffee cup. I’ll just have to get him another one.

“No I am, it was my fault.” Liam responds, inspecting his shirt.

“It was my fault. I wasn’t paying attention.”

“Nope. I ran into you on purpose. I needed an excuse to talk to you.” He says, I blush.

“Oh…” I respond, still blushing, now looking at the floor as if I’m inspecting the coffee.

“I’ve been trying to get ahold of you for three days, where have you been?”

“Sorry, my phone died and I can’t find the charger.”

“Abigail… stop lying.”

“I’m not lying!” I lie, just before my phone decided to make a ‘ding’ sound as a text came in. Could this moment get any more cliché?

“Did I do something wrong?” He gets this sad look on his face; I hate that look. It makes me feel so guilty.

“Of course not,”

“Then why are you ignoring me?”

“I’m not ignoring you, I promise.” I’m such a bad person. He looks happier at the thought so I take a step towards him and stand on my tip toes. I kiss him. Right there, in the midst of everything else; I kiss him like it’s the last time I ever would. I don’t know my decision yet. Niall or Liam?

Niall or Liam?

He pulls away from the kiss before I do and looks at me straight in the eyes, resting his forehead on mine. His eyes are gorgeous. I notice how they have this sparkle to them after we kiss which seems strange since he has brown eyes but they look perfect. He’s perfect. But so is Niall.

I like Liam.

I can’t remember when I started liking him. Before I came here, it was always Niall which is exactly why I freaked out when he smiled at me on that first day. I still think he’s pretty awesome and majorly attractive but I’m not as… crazy for him.