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Chapter 38: Make Her Love Me. (flashback)

Jake's POV :)

        I can't believe I just told Lex all of that. But, she needed to know. She needed to know how much fucking pain she has caused me. I am going to kill Harry...One way or another. He fucking stole Lex from me. He fucking stole her...

        She is what I looked forward to seeing every single day. But, now she's no longer mine...even though she never was.  My mom told me. She fucking told me.

        *FLASHBACK*

        "Jake, I don't like her," my mom said.

        "Why not?" I asked. My mom was really pissing me off.

        "She just seems like bad news Jake. You seem obsessed with her."

        "I am not obsessed with her mom," I growled. "She is my best friend..and I am in love with her."

        "Jake she will never love you," my mom laughed.

        "Really? Why not?" I asked.

        "Because you are too much like your father. You are a fucking screw up like him," she said. Tears started filling up my eyes. "Who would want to be your girlfriend? Once she finds out what your father fucking did to me, she will be scared to death."

        "I'm nothing like my father," I growled. My body started to shake with anger. I am fucking pissed.

        "Oh yes you are," she replied. "Just look at you shaking right now. You look just like he did before he used to hit me. You know what Jake?" she said. "I hope that one day Lexi will fall in love with someone else besides you and live happily with him because she sure as hell won't live happily with you."

        "Shut the fuck up." 

        "Speak up! I can't hear you."

        "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I roared.

        Then my mom slapped me.

        "You don't fucking talk to me that way Jacob," she growled.

        "Fuck you!" I screamed.

        Then I punched my mom in the face. She lost her balance and stumbled over. I ran into the kitchen and opened the cabinet's. I found a sharp knife. I walked back into the living room, and found my mother still laying on the ground.

        "Jake? What the fuck are you doing?" she yelled.

        "You shouldn't have fucked with me mom. You shouldn't have."

        "Please Jake! Don't!" she said while trembling with fear.

        "Goodbye," I whispered in her ear.

        Then I stabbed her in the stomach. Her eyes started to roll back into her head. Blood started coming out of her body. I covered her body in a blanket and drove it put it in our car. I drove to the nearby river, and threw her body in the water.

        As I watched her body move further and further down the river, that was when my thoughts and feelings for anyone went away. My past dissolved in the water. But my feelings for Lex stayed. I loved her. And one day I was going to make her love me.

No matter what it takes...