first kiss ⇒ g.d

i'm sorry

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the end of the day had over come us and we all had to go down to the bus bay to go home.

not really fond of leaving Grayson all the time in the end of the day when all he wants to do is kiss me, I feel like he'll cheat on me, he did seem really excited when I "said" that we'd "do it" tonight..

someone broke my train of thought by sitting next to me on the bus.

'did you even ask?'
I turn to see Grayson

'so i'm not aloud to sit next to my girlfriend?'
he smiled and laughed.

'sorry thought you were someone I didn't know'
I laughed.

'awh you're so cute when you laugh'
he exaggerated the "awh"

'shut up, you know I hate my laugh'
I nudged him in the shoulder.

geez how many times am I going to do this.

'well it's true, and I love it but I mostly love you'
he kissed my cheek.

'anyway why are you catching my bus?'
totally forgetting we live near each other

'with live near each other silly, I either catch this bus or bus 12'
he had that "duhh" look on his face.

'ohhhh, i'm so fucking stupid'
I said way to loudly causing a lot of people to stare.

I quiet down a bit and just look out the window and put in my earphones, even though I could've been talking to Grayson I wanted to listen to my music and forget about some stuff that's been happening at home that i'm not that confident to talk about.

'hey so you're not gonna talk to me'
Gray puts his index finger under my chin pulling my head towards him.

'sorry I've just got a lot on my mind and I do this a lot at the end of the day, I kind of get stressed sometimes'
I confessed.

'awh babe, what's been on your mind'
he puts his hand on my thigh making my whole body weak making me want to give in.

'well it's stuff at home, I don't really want to talk about it on the bus'
I looked down and put my hand on his.

'okay but you will still tell me right?'
I looked up and into his eyes causing my heart to skip a beat.

'yeah'
I exhaled.

'you okay?'
he seemed worried.

he was worried.

'yeah i'm fine'
I gave him a smile and put my earphones back in, the song "lose it - oh wonder" was playing.

he smiled at me but he was more upset then happy, i'm guessing he really wants to know what's wrong, i'm worried, I don't want to tell him.

he's scared to find out.

I mean it's not that bad, I guess i'm used to it.

it's horrid.

I don't need to tell him right? I mean I can always lie..

lying won't help.

it's not like he can do anything, I can tell anyone and no one will do a thing or care, I may seem really happy but are you sure i'm really happy.

you're not.

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the bus arrives at our stop and we get up and walk out the door of the bus.

'can you tell me now'
he grabbed my hand.

'it's really nothing'
I lied.

'I know you're lying'
he looked me dead in the eye.

only if he knew.

'really it's nothing'
we start walking towards his house.

'why don't we go to your house?'
he questioned.

I don't think he would want to.

'I like your house better'
I can't help but lie.

'okay, if you say so'
he seemed as if he knows something's wrong with me.

he knows.

he stopped me in my tracks and looked me in the eyes and asked me.

'(y/n) tell me what's wrong'
he held both of my hands looking at me with those brown eyes.

'I can't tell you'
I don't have the strength to.

'yes you can.. I know you can'
he insisted.

'fines, it's my dad, he's kind of abusive, it's nothing to worry about, he may hit us but he's just showing his love in a different way'
a shiver went down my spine, knowing I just told him that makes me want to cry, I've been hit, belted and scratched.

'us? who else does he do this to?'
Grayson was upset but mostly angry.

'my mum, my brother, me'
I want to cry, I need to cry my heart out, but I cant, I guess i'm used to it.

'why haven't you called the police yet?'
his grip on my hands let loose and he grabbed out his phone.

'no Grayson please, it'll make it worse'
I grabbed his phone out of his hands.

'worse? worse??? how, he's breaking some law right? this would help'
he yelled.

'please don't yell at me'
I backed away thinking he was going to do something.

'(y/n) I-I-i'm sorry, please don't leave, you thought I was gonna hit you didn't you? I would never do that, I-I love you way to much'
he realised he was getting violent with his anger.

'i-I know, it's okay, i'm fine'
he came closer towards him.

'I'm sorry'
he walked towards me and wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me tight.

'it's okay, i'm used to it'
I was tired and warn out.

'we need to stop this, show me you stomach or your waist'
he told me lifting my shirt up revealing bruises.

'(y/n) w-why haven't you told anyone?'
a tear rolled down his cheek.

'because it will get worse'
I started crying.

'no it won't, I promise'
he pulled me into a hug.

now I definitely know that he loves me, he promised to me that it will get better, I hope it does...

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can you guys just take a minute and read my authors note about the trailer, please.
thank you,
love,
Jaime xx