Things got bad. Very bad. So bad, I almost died.
One night, I felt really suicidal, and I took a knife and started cutting myself. I had to be taken to the emergency after my mom found me passed out on the floor with blood all over me.
I was almost dead, but I survived. I was in the hospital for five days, but after that I was good to go, and my mom was really concerned about me. I couldn't do track for a week, which was no problem at all.
Nobody at school knew about that incident, which was fine by me because I didn't want so much attention.
Then hospital people diagnosed me with depression and gave me pills for it, but they didn't even work. My mom made me take them anyway.
Once I was able to do track again, it sucked. Coach Yaul did the same old track torture drills she always did.
I didn't get any closer with my Jake and Bob mysteries, which was a bummer. I still really wanted both of them, but Bob was not on option. Not unless I had died that night and met him up in heaven. I wished that happened. At least with Jake, he's alive. If I couldn't have Bob, then I wanted Jake.
We had a few more track meets, but never got first. The best we did was third. May had began, and we had to prepare for the big huge track meet at the end of the month on the last week of school.
It was our last chance to get first place, and Coach Yaul was determined to win it. We practiced till we threw up. After a vomiting session, we would get back on the track until we had to vomit again. We ran seven miles some days, and nine other days. We ran twenty sprints at a time. The throwers threw until their arms were about to fall off.
We prepared extremely hard for this meet, and after a while, the day finally came. It was our last chance to prove ourselves to Coach Yaul that we were capable of winning.
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Pain is Life
Fiksi RemajaMary is a depressed teen with a lot of stress in her life. She must cope with it. But some people turn her world upside down in one moment. Read to find out her story.
