My Brother's Best Friend (Luke Hemmings/5SOS Fanfic)

Chapter 8

ADDISONS POV

"Addie?"A deep firmilar voice clalled out, I looked up from my arms and saw Luke, frowning. I set my chin on my arms.

"Luke"I huffed, not facing him again, as I set my head sideways on my arms. I was sat in the corner.

"Addison, do oyu know why I hated you in the first place?"

"No, I want to know. Wouldyou mind telling me, Luke?"I asked, keeping my gaze away from him. Luke cupped my face, forcing me to look at him.

"Addie, when we met in 2011, I thought you were a bitch, who was using Ashton. I found out that you were his sister and...." He paused, figuring out his wording, "I liked you from the start, but I didn't want to admit. So that one day, that you did unthinkable. You were rude, for the first time ever. You told everyone to fuck off. We thought you were joking, when you didn't come back down. When you did, you were still rude, and we didn't know what was going on."He stopped, "Addie, you, uh, you, were drunk, and uh, well you walked out of the house, a bag in hand, determined to get out of Austrailia."He choked on his words, my facial expression persuded him to continue "But you, you diliberitly stood in the middle of the street and tried killing yourself, and I hide my feelings for you. I didn't want to believe them"Tears were flowing down him cheeks, "Addison, I hated you for the fact that I love you. I'm not gonna deny it anymore. I had told the boys before, while you were at a friend's house. I- uh- had to tell Ashton what I actually felt about you, he was over the moon, oddly."He chuckled, tears still coming out. "I never told you. I couldn't. I started being rude to you, and when you were rude back, I thought that I felt butterflies, I know I did."He looked up at me, all I knew was that I had butterflies, do I like him? No I couldn't possibly. "I do love you, Addie, I really really do. And no matter how long or what it takes, I will make you love me"He somewhat growled. Before I could even start to process what he had said, Luke kissed me, forcefully. I pushed him off, and let the tears fall. 

"I don't even know where to begin, Luke. I don't. I knew what I was doing, Luke, that day, I wasn't drunk! I wanted my life to end! I didn't want to be here anymore. Not with you. I knew I was going to be forced to school again if I had told Ashton I wasn't drunk! I made it up! I'm not an idiot! I dropped out for a reason! I didn't want to go! I could have made my own life without it."I walked up to him and said in a soft voice, "I can do something, that no one knows. I can sing, I just don't not in front of people or even when anyone's around me period. I sing on my own time, on my rules."I started. "Luke, I-. I feel really bad for lying to you, I do, but I'm not sure if I like you that way or not. I never really had told you that I actually liked you. I thought that I would never have a chance wth you though. So I tried to kill myself. Next thing I know I'm in a hospital bed, you and the boys bawlling because I wasn't awake yet. I closed my eyes again, acting asleep, listening to you guys. Hearing what you would say. I didn't like it, you all thought that I was going to die in the hospital. I wouldn't! I woul make you take me home and kill me there."I laughed a bit, "I hadn't shown anyone, and I mean anyone this.Come on, we are going downstairs"I said, now excited, as I leaped up, grabbingmy guitar which I had placed where no one had ever thought. My closet. It's a fucking train wreck in that. I almost fell on my face, going down the stairs.

"Hey, resovled?"Ashton asked, raising an eyebrow at my sudden happiness.

"Not yet, but maybe, I dunno. Come on!"I yelled excitedly, pulling him in the lounge room. "So I've been keeping a secret from all of you, everyone actually."

"What would that be?"Calum asked.

"I can play the guitar"

"Ok."

"And I sing."I added, quickly.

"Let her sing! I wanna hear my baby sis singing!"

"Calm, down Ashton, I'm getting there. So you may know this song"I started playing the chords.

"A drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven

I don't wanna waste the weekend

If you don't love me pretend

A few more hours then it's time to go

As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm

It's too late to cry

Too broken to move on

And still I can't let you be

Most nights I hardly sleep

Don't take what you don't need from me

It's just a drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven

Misplaced trust in old friends

Never counting regrets

By the grace of God I do not rest at all

And New England as the leaves change

The last excuse that I'll claim

I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl

And still I can't let you be

Most nights I hardly sleep

Don't take what you don't need from me

It's just a drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my...

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore

No

No

Heaven doesn't seem far away

Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore

No

No

Heaven doesn't seem far away

Oh

Oh

A drop in the ocean

A change in the weather

I was praying that you and me might end up together

It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert

But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven

You are my heaven"I finished and looked up at the now staring boys, "Say something! I'm getting worried" and with that I was attacked in hugs by the boys, after Luke had aburptly taken my guitar and placed it down. "Holy shit guys. Get off me!"I laughed, not being serious at all! Which I guess they caught onto, seeing as they all laughed, shaking their heads. I sighed, hugging them back.