Unsteady | Kian Lawley

part 21: help me find him

It was night time before my car ran out of gas, forcing me to stop on the side of a road I didn't know the name of. I opened the glove box, pulling out a box of cigarettes, a lighter inside.

I pressed one between my lips, holding it there so it didn't fall. I grabbed a wool blanket from my backseat, opening my car door. A giant hill was next to the road, so I climbed up it and laid my blanket down, stretching it out on the ground.

"I'm so sorry this has to happen, but I promise I love you so much." I cried into my sleeves, my other hand rubbing my stomach.

I layed down on the blanket and opened my eyes to a dark sky lit up with millions of white stars shining, along with the florescent moon hovering above me. A tear slipped down my cheek as I looked back down at myself, what a horribe sight. As I thought about where Kian could have gone, and if I would ever see him again, my eyelids became heavy and I fell asleep.

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I had the biggest headache in the morning when I woke up, but I had no reason to stay and nurse myself. When I stood up to fold my blanket back into my car, my morning sickness pushed me to my knees, making me fall into some weeds and relieve my stomach.

"This is too much." I sighed, wiping my mouth with my sleeve.

I pulled myself up and pulled down my bathing suit cover, hiding my bathing suit underneath. Because my car had no gas and my phone had died in the night, I started walking back home.

It took about thirty minutes for me to walk into our yard, only one car in the driveway. I planted my feet at the welcome mat on the porch and knocked on the door, it felt right to knock.

It was Cameron who unlocked the door, it was Cameron who pulled me into his arms and didn't let go, it was Cameron who rubbed my back as I cried in the doorway, it was Cameron who should be the father of my baby. I had always been so jealous of Sage because she had such a great guy who would love her no matter what, and I was stuck with someone who was so ashamed of something he did, that he ran away.

"Don't ever run away again, I love you so much, Riley!" Cameron kissed the top of my head, pulling me into the house by my waist.

"I love you too, Cameron. Where's Sage at?" I changed the subject.

"She's at work, but can I get you anything? Food, a drink, anything?" Cameron asked, turning his music off.

I shook my head and grabbed my charger, plugging my phone in. When my phone had a complete charge, I pulled it off of the charger and opened up twitter.

When we came back from Hawaii, Kian started a team youtube channel with his best friend Jc Caylen, and he's become very popular. So, when I opened my twitter, Kian had tweeted a few things obviously about me and thousands of people had liked them.

@kianlawley 12:00 am

You're so stupid and foolish, this was all your fault.

@kianlawley 1:30 am

How could you be so stupid to mess my life up, just when you knew it was getting good.

@kianlawley 3:45 am

What happened to just messing around? Oh that's right, you fucked me over and brought havack on my life..

I locked my phone and threw it down on the couch, letting out a loud sigh.

fix it riley.

"Cameron, can you do me a favor?" I asked, scratching my neck. Cameron looked up from his phone and smiled. "Anything!" he said.

I got up and grabbed his car keys since my car was all the way up by the hollywood sign.

"Help me find Kian.." I whispered.
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this will always be such a bad chapter haha xx