Chances [2] (Jacob Black)

Chapter 15 Cliff Diving

Reyna

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"Reyna I am so sorry," Sam murmurs and wraps his arms around me. I let him embrace me and hold me.

It hasn't sunk in.

"This isn't real," I whisper. "This isn't happening."

"Reyna it is," Sam says but his words are drowned out by the disbelief I feel.

Jade and I, our story wasn't supposed to end so soon.

"I can't believe this, I just can't," I choke out as the tears start.

"I'll see you tomorrow bunny," Jade chirps and kisses me gingerly. I melt into her arms. I hum happily and move my lips against hers. When we we kiss I swear sparks fly.

"I'll see you!"

I was saying goodbye and I didn't even know it.

The last thing I said to her was 'I'll see you.' I didn't even say 'I love you' or 'goodbye.' I never got to say all the things I wanted to.

"I loved her Sam," I whimper. A wracking sob escapes from my lips and I crumple to my knees. "I-I did-dn't get to say g-goodbye."

Jade is gone, her body is gone, her smile is gone, her laugh is gone, her kisses are gone, her eyes are gone, and all her want embraces are gone.

Jade has died and is doesn't feel real. I feels like it's happening to some else. It has to be happening to someone else.

I can feel myself breaking and I let out a crushing scream mixed with a heart wrenching sob.

I can't handle this, I can't handle this.

"It's going to be okay Reyna," Sam assures and rubs my hair.

"No it won't!" I growl and shove him back. Anger wells up in me so I stand up and stomp around. "It will never be okay Sam! She's dead! Jade is dead! I will never see her again and that will never be okay!"

My anger melts back into sadness and in an instant I'm crying again.

"I'm sorry Sam," I utter and rapidly wipe the tears from my eyes. "I just-"

"It's okay Reyna, I understand. When someone in the pack does its feels like losing a limb," Sam says in a soft voice. He walks closer and pulls me back into his arms. I clutch his shirt and openly sob.