Trapped (Book 2 of Seaweed Brain and Ghost Girl)

For You (Not an update!)

Dear Cammy Di Angelo,

You didn't have to explain everything, you didn't have to feel bad. You don't have to think that I hate you, I never did. I forgave you the day you walked up to me and told me we needed to talk.
You know, everything is pretty much falling apart for me. After you left, got a new best friend, I became lost. I completely forgot who I was, I mean, I'm still lost but, it's really ok. I'll manage.

I would walk past you and see you smile with someone else. I was mentally hurt, that I couldn't physically go up to you anymore. I would plan to go up to you, bother you, not leave until you have said at least a hello to me, but I decided not to because you would leave nonetheless. I honestly want us to be on good terms, I don't know what you want to do, just tell me what you want.

Also, I have decided to come out to you about who I am. I am gender-fluid, meaning some days I am a girl, some days I am a boy, some days I am nothing. I have multiple personality disorder, I have a lot of different sides to me. Aria, Cubby, CUBBY, Anndy, there's more but I would rather not say. Aria is a depressed girl who cries a lot and is downright sad. Cubby is a quiet kid who does what they are told, and smiles a lot. CUBBY is a energetic little boy who cannot be contained, and Anndy...well, Anndy is a boy who shows little emotion but cares nonetheless. I am usually Anndy, I didn't want to tell you, not like this.

I will not dance weird in front of anyone, I am not as energetic, I work out as much as possible, and I am scared. I am scared that we won't be able to overcome this big obstacle.

I miss you, I miss you all the time. You know, I would watch as you left band and go into your car. (No I was not stalking you) And when someone called your name I would glance in that direction. At the awards ceremony they called your name, I clapped, but I stopped when I realized you weren't there.

Our friends still talked about you but when they did I would stay silent. When I walked around you.to get somewhere, I kept my head down so you didn't have to see my face.

I screwed up, I never got to see you. I never got to text you. I never got to be there for you. A big reason.was because of theatre. I was depressed when me and Alex broke up, I didn't eat, sleep, speak for days. It only made matters worse when Micah came to me and told me that she liked him. I was shattered. Then when they told me they were together, I was broken.

I wanted to avoid all my friends, I fell in love with Shelby because we were the same. I asked her out exactly 8 days after Alex and Micah got together. I wanted you there, in my life, in their lives. They all wanted you in their lives, Micah wanted to become your friend. She would still like to. Everyone still would.

I want to say I'm sorry. For being an asshole that day, and for taking it badly. For not being able to be there for you, everything. I'm not asking for you to forgive me, because that's up to you. Oh, and just you you know, I love you too.

*Sigh* Hades....

Loll.
Also, I dyed half of head pink, loll, also, listen to Hug Me by V and JHope, it explains how I feel. (It's there with the picture)

Sincerely Yours!

Emery gods dam Summers Jackson!