The Slide Boy

Twenty-Seven

Juliet POV

2 weeks later.

I don't love Cameron anymore. We've been together for 2 weeks now, and I don't feel any of the things I felt when we were together before. He doesn't make me incredibly happy anymore, he doesn't make me feel alive, or feel butterflies in my stomach when we kiss. I've realized that I'm not in love with him anymore, in fact I haven't been in love with him for awhile. I've just been in love with the memory of loving him.

Things were weird around Nash now. Knowing that he loves me breaks my heart, because I don't know if I feel the same. I hate knowing that I'm hurting him and that I can't stop hurting him. I hate myself for that. I wish I could give him all the things he deserves, but I can't.

"Juliet?" Cameron waved his hand in my face, a goofy smile playing on his lips. "Were you listening to me?" We were at my house, watching a movie while my parents weren't home.

"I'm sorry, what?"

"Are you okay? You've been a little out of it lately." He frowned at me, searching my face.

"I don't love you." I blurted out. I quickly covered my mouth, my eyes wide. "I-i mean, I don't love you in that way, anymore. I'm sorry." I sighed, looking down guiltily.

"I-i understand." He nodded at me, his eyes watering. He blinked his tears away, and stood up grabbing his jacket off the back of my couch. "I'm going to go.." He trailed off, and left the house. I leaned back in the couch, butting my lip. These past 2 months have been terrible. Ever since I got back from London, nothing has went my way. Its like a rollercoaster, and not the good ones that make you feel alive. No, I mean the ones that make you feel like puking and like fainting. The ones that you hate so much, and just can't wait to get off. I couldn't wait to go on tour, and get away from here. It sucked, having two guys love you and knowing you don't love one of them, but not knowing if you love the other in that way or not. It was horrible, and I hated myself for hurting them both.

"Hey.." Nash awkwardly trailed off as he shoved his hands in his pockets. I looked up at him, and he frowned walking closer. "Are you okay?" He asked. I hadn't even realized I was crying until he said something. I quickly whipped my tears, and nodded my head.

"Me and Cameron broke up." I whispered, playing with the hem of my hoodie. He sat down beside me, looking at me with concern.

"I'm sorry." He said, though he didn't sound sorry. I leaned my head on his shoulder awkwardly.

"Its fine, it was my decision."

"Wiat, why?"

"I don't love him." I shrugged helplessly. He nodded, and it got quiet. I sat up, and looked at him. "Wait what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with Matt at some arcade, that I wasn't invited to by the way." I rolled my eyes at him playfully, trying to lighten the mood.

"Oh, yeah I just came to get my hoodie, I forgot it last night." He chuckled lightly. I glanced down at the hoodie I was wearing, and mentally sighed in relief when I saw it wasn't this one. I was wearing a black hoodie with me, Nash and Matt on it, it was from the movie.

"Oh yeah, its in my room." I got up to go get it. He followed me silently. "I washed it since I spilled soda on it." I blushed sheepishly. He nodded, and I handed it to him. I awkwardly leaned against my desk, biting my lip as I looked at anything but him. I hated how awkward things were now.

"Well, thanks." Nash murmured, and turned to walk away.

"Nash!" I called out the same time he turned around. I bit my lip, "can we not make things so awkward anymore? I really miss you." He smiled at me, and nodded walking closer to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and I wrapped mine around his neck in a tight hug. I really missed him. Once we pulled away, he said bye and left to go with Matt who was waiting outside in his car. I layed in bed, just thinking about all the things that has happened since Cameron came into our lives. I looked down at my arm, where the scar from getting kidnapped was still visible. I traced it, remembering that night. I shuddered, pulling my sleeve down and cuddling into a stuffed bear one of my fans got me. I had to remember to make a video, thanking them. I had thanked them already on twitter, but I wanted to make a video. I sent out a tweet saying that I was going to do a Q&A video today. Immediately I started getting questions, and I smiled at how dedicated my fans are.

"Hey guys it's me, your favorite Juliet." I grinned to the camera. It had been awhile since I did a Q&A. "I want to start off saying I absolutely love the gifts you guys sent me while I was in the hospital. Seriously, you guys make me feel so loved. Y'all are the best." I blew a kiss to the camera, and grinned. "So, this is a Q&A video to clear up some questions you guys have. I'm not going to be answering all of them, but I'll try to answer most of them." I grabbed my phone, going to the questions I screenshotted.

"Okay, Julietsbabygirl asked 'were you drunk when you crashed your car?' Well, I don't want to lie to you guys, so, yeah I was. I was really stressed out, and so I had a few beers. It was a huge mistake and I do not recommend it. Driving while drinking is a very bad choice, and trust me crashing your car isn't fun, especially the rehab." I rolled my eyes, remembering that. I actually still go by court order.

"The next question is by Othelia she asks 'are you and Cameron back together because I be seeing pictures of yall'. well, nosey girl, we are not." I laughed lightly, "we're just friends guys, calm down."

"If you had to date Nash or Matt, who would it be?" I read out another question, blushing. "Guys, those are my best friends!" I laughed, "but definitely Nash. Matt isn't that romantic, but don't tell him I said that or he'll have a hissy fit and try to make some romantic gesture just to prove a point, and then me and Nash will have to clean up his mess. He's such a kid." I laughed, flipping my hair over my shoulders. It kind of surprised me how easily I answered that question. I answered a lot of questions, and then edited the video. I wasn't going to upload it until tomorrow, so when I was done I just went to bed.