This Time

Please

ALY'S P.O.V.

After few weeks

It's been weeks after Kief and I talked in person, and when I unintentionally threw hurtful words to him. I don't know how and why all of a sudden I got upset when I heard him saying that he wants an explanation from Mika.

And I know I was wrong, I should be the one who'll support him in everything he wants to do. But what I did has absolutely nothing to do to help him ease the pain he's feeling. I am such an asshole to say those to him.

Pag katapos ng nagyari na 'yon, di na ako nag karoon ng chance na makipag-usap sakanya and say sorry in person. I'll just always text him messages asking him if he's okay, how's he doing, and telling him that he can call me whenever he needs me.

Pero lahat ng reply niya, pareho lang.

"I'm fine, don't worry I am a man now."

"Doing great, being just like what a real man should be. Thanks to your wonderful inspiring line."

"Yes. I'll call you when I can."

Everytime I'll read his messages to me, a single piece of my heart drops. Sobra, I cannot blame him naman eh. I deserve to be treated like that. But does this mean na it's the end of our friendship na? Shit. I hope it's not, please.

Sometimes, I'll call tita Mozzy to check Kiefer. Tita always said that Kiefer's not home daw. And she don't know where on earth he is.

I am worried sick about Kiefer, I want to talk to him but I have to prepare myself muna for the championship game 3 against La Salle. I am currently here at the BEG locker room.

I turned on my phone, expecting a message from Kiefer. I texted him kasi kanina before going here. But I got nothing so I just put back my phone to my Gym bag and proceeded to the court.

I am practicing my services from the service line when Kiwi came.

"Oh, you're here too. Looks like I'll have my practice partner this afternoon huh?" She said and ran towards me.

"Yeah, definitely." I told her. We were just having a good time practicing ourselves when she decided to take a rest for a while and drink gatorade.

I heard Kiwi talking to someone, a guy. Bguut  continued doing some drills.

"We were planning to do some shots sana eh, but I think someone's having a.. a hard time practicing over there. So I guess I should be waiting outside muna." The guy said.

I actually don't want to see who's the guy Kiwi's talking to but I heard my name eh.

"It's Alyssa, paps. Ano ka ba."

I turned to look and see who mentioned my name, and I saw Von, with Kiefer. I waved my hand to acknowledge their presence, Von replied with a smile but Kiefer just stared at me blankly and talked back to Kiwi.

"I'll go ahead Kiwi. Good luck and God bless for tomorrow's game 3." He turned his back and started walking away. Von did not follow him, he said that he'll just stay in the bleachers.

I ran to chase Kiefer, Von and Kiwi just kept their eyes on me while I am running. when I got out of the gym, I saw Kiefer sitting on one of the benches. Daha-dahan akong pumunta sa tabi niya. Naka-focus lang siya sa phone niya, and he's wearing his earphones.

KIEF'S P.O.V.

I saw the girl I've been avoiding for weeks. Ewwan ko ba, bakit parang ang hirap tanggapin na sinabihan ako ni Alyssa ng gano'n. Siguro kasi I've expected too much from her, including 'she'll always understand me'.

I tried to keep distance from her to forget what happened and what she's said. Pero di rin naman ako manhid para di ko mafeel na namimiss ko siya. Oo, sobrang miss ko na makasama siya.

I sometimes ask mama pa if she called. Lagi naman daw siyang tumatawag, pero worried daw cause she heard that I am always not home. Di niya alam, kaya ako late umuuwi sa bahay, every sunday kasi dumadaan ako sa dorm nila.

I'll ask Kiwi or Mae if she's doing good. Nag tataka nga sila kung bakit ayaw kong ipaalam kay Ly na dumadalaw ako. Pero, although they're wondering why, they still kept their mouths shut from Ly.

Lumabas nalang ako ng gym. Haha sobrang bata kong mag isip, nag eexpect nanaman kasi ako na she'll follow me. I took my phone out, shit. My battery's empty na. I heard some footsteps papunta sakin, I guess it's her. So I plugged in my earphones and pretended that I'm listening to a song.

She sat beside me.

"Uy." Sabi niya, pero di ako umimik.

"Kiefer." Ayoko parin mag salita, nag papasuyo ako.

"Wag mo nga akong lokohin Kiefer Isaac Ravena, nakita ko kayang nag shut down yang phone mo." She said and took my earphones away from my ears.

"Bakit di mo ako kinakausap?" She asked me a stupid question. This time, I looked at her.

"Kasi 'di masakit yung sinabi mo sakin weeks ago?" I sarcastically answered her.

"Kief, sorry. I know it's my bad, sorry talaga nasabi ko 'yon. Please wag ka na magalit." Di na ako ulit umimik. She continued saying sorry while I am just looking straightly at the ground, hiding my smiles in my face.

I think she notices those becasue she stopped explaining her side na. Instead, she pinched my ear and said..

"Tinatawanan mo lang ako eh." She said so stopped acting like I don't care anymore. I stood up and offered her my hand. She grabbed it and stood up as well, I said nothing and just pulled her for a hug and said...

"Lang hiya ka kasi Ly. Bwisit ka, ang sakit ng sinabi mo sakin no'n. Pero di parin kita matiis, please wag mo na dagdagan yung sakin na naramdaman ko. Di ko kaya kung pati bestfriend ko mag sawa na sakin."

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"Tingin ko, bati na sila ulit Jho." Sabi ko habang nakatingin lang sakanila na mag kayakap. Alyssa looked so happy now.

"Bati na sila kuya Ysay. Pero it doesn't mean naman na they're now together. Wag mo hintayin yo'n mangyari kuya na hindi mo pa nasasabi feelings mo." Sabi ni Jho sakin.

She's right, I should not let my chance to tell Ly about my feelings fade away. Win or lose, I'll confess my feelings for her after the thanksgiving mass on saturday.

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