is it true? | jjk

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i remember the sight of your matured, big, brown doe eyes staring back into my dull gray ones with shock.

you whispered my name, and sheepishly rubbed the back of your neck, one of your nervous habits you had always had.

i nodded back, and stood up from my position on the ground.

"it's been a while." i said, looking away from you, suddenly finding the floor very interesting.

"how have you been?" you asked me.

how have i been? i don't even know how to answer you without sounding like a complete idiot. how was i supposed to tell you that this entire time i've been thinking about how you have been?

"fine," i mustered up an answer. "and you?"

"great," you laughed. i haven't heard that laugh in such a long time.

"i should get going," i said, turning away from you and waving. "bye."

"wait!" you had suddenly shouted. i was reluctant to turn around. i didn't want to see your face anymore.

but i did anyways. "yeah?"

you looked at the ground before looking back up at me again. "do you wanna, maybe, grab a coffee or something?" you smiled. "it's been a while since we've talked."

every ounce of me-- every fiber of my being-- was telling me to say no, and to just leave you there. but even though i wanted to, i couldn't.

i didn't want to become the person you were.

"sure."