is it true? | jjk

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i remember when i crossed the line.

it had been a couple of months since we had been reacquainted with each other. it was as if nothing had happened between us. our bond had been rebuilt, and it was stronger than ever.

but, at the same time, i had been falling more and more for you.

your bunny teeth, your eye crinkles, your broad back, honestly-- just everything about you sent my heart into overdrive.

"hey," you called me.

"yeah?" i said, walking next to you. you had invited me for a walk near the han river.

"how have you been?" you asked. "you always asked about my wellbeing, but we never really talked about you."

"um," i said. "i've been okay." i smiled.

"okay never really means okay." you said, staring into my eyes. i shrugged.

we continued walking until we found a bench to sit it. there were a few pigeons lingering around the area that flew away when we walked closer.

"can i say something?" you said. i nodded.

"i wanted to apologize... for what i did to you in the past." there was a look of guilt in your eyes that made me want to cry.

i could never stand it when the people i loved were sad.

"it's okay," i said. "it happened so long ago."

"no, it's not okay!" you exclaimed, shocking me with your loud voice. "i practically abandoned you without warning! i watched as you walked into school everyday alone and sad!" there were tears building in your eyes. "do you know how guilty i felt?" you suddenly whispered.

i pat your back, like a friend would. "it's okay, jungkook. everything's back to normal now." i smiled, hoping you would feel better.

"now it's better. what about back then?"

i looked down. "i'll admit that I felt a little abandoned. i wasn't completely lonely though. the people in the student council became some of my closest friends."

"like that's supposed to make me feel better." you said, tears slipping out.

out of nowhere, my breath was knocked out of my chest as you pulled me into your chest. you mumbled countless amounts of apologies into my ears. i felt myself tearing up at the sound of it.

"jungkook-ah," i said, shaking you off of me. you continued to hold onto my hands even as you released me. "stop crying," i laughed. "you look really ugly when you cry."

you still continued to cry. i remember thinking that you hadn't really changed from when we were little. you used to always be a crybaby.

i let my own tears slip out when i realized how guilty you must've felt back then.

unconsciously, i reached my hand out for your cheek and wiped away your tears.

"jungkook, look at me." i whispered.

you looked at me with tearful eyes, and i couldn't stop myself from leaning in.

i remember your lips tasting like mint and tears.