is it true? | jjk

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i remember you avoiding me since that incident.

i wondered how you would act around me now. when we met again in that cafe for the first time, you acted as if nothing happened between us, and that made it a lot easier to be around you.

but after the incident-- the kiss-- you hadn't called me or contacted me. it was like our reconciliation never happened.

i sighed and got out of my house. i needed some fresh air.

my feet unconsciously brought to the bench where it happened.

i sat down and sighed, looking at the scenery before me.

i closed my eyes.

man, i screwed up bad.

i sat at that bench for who knows how long. all i know is that i was able to watch the sunset from my position on the bench.

"fancy seeing you here."

i turned around and met face to face with those beautiful brown eyes again.

"hey." i said, looking down.

you sat next to me. i didn't know how to start the conversation without breaking down in a nervous wreck.

"so um," you started. i was semi-grateful because i didn't have to think of a way to start talking to you.

"...why did you do it?" you asked.

i fiddled with my fingers-- a nervous trait that i had adapted from you. "um," i mumbled.

i took a deep breath and closed my eyes. i needed to gather every once of courage i could.

"since we stopped talking a couple of years ago, you were the only person on my mind." i refused to look at you while i talked. i'd lose all my courage if i did.

"i was reminded of you through everything i did. i stopped playing piano because it felt wrong to play without you there." i heard you gasp, and it took a lot of power to continue talking.

i opened my eyes and looked at you, suddenly not caring if i would become a coward.

"i did it because i fell in love with you, jungkook." i let a tear slip out of my eyes.

"i love you, jeon jungkook." i said, standing up and preparing to leave.

"wait!"

you grabbed my wrist, preventing me from running away.

"yes?" i whispered, refusing to turn around.

it was silent for what seemed like an eternity before you spoke.

"i'm so sorry for putting you through all that pain. i had no idea." you said, almost whispering.

"i'm also sorry for being so oblivious to your feelings." i turned around and looked at you.

"...but i just don't feel the same way." you whispered.

i nodded and pulled my hand out of your grip, ignoring the burning sensation in my heart. "i expected that," i smiled through my tears hoping you wouldn't feel as bad.

"but will you allow me to do this?" i asked. you nodded. i walked closer to you and hugged you. i listened to your quickened heart rate.

it was oddly calming.

i reached up and kissed you on the cheek before releasing you. your eyes were watery, and it looked like you were having a hard time.

"i think it's best if we stop talking." i said, wiping my tears. "it would be the best for both of u--"

"no!" you shouted, startling me. "i finally found my best friend again after all these years, and i'm not gonna let her go again!" you shouted, looking directly into my eyes.

"but, jungkook--"

"i'll admit that i loved you too at one point in our friendship." you said, shocking me. "but i pushed it off and found someone else because loving my best friend felt... wrong."

you let a tear fall out of your eyes as you collapsed back down on the bench. "then i went ahead and fell in love with someone who was only using me." you held your face in your hands as you leaned on your knees. "i'm such an idiot." you laughed.

you looked up at me again. "and now the girl i loved loves me back, and i don't feel the same." you sighed. "i'm such a bad person."

i shook my head. "no, you're not." i pat the top of your head, just like how i used to when we were little. "you're a good person, kookie."

you laughed. "there you go with that nickname again."

you stood up and held my hands. "but, in all honestly, i really want to fall in love with you." you said, looking deeply into my eyes. i smiled and looked down, shyly.

"i want you to fall in love with me, too." i mumbled, hoping you wouldn't hear it.

but you did.

you laughed a hearty laugh. it made my heart flutter. i hadn't heard such a genuine laugh out of you in so long.

you pulled me into another hug and rested your chin on top of my head.

"will you give me a chance to fall in love with you?" you asked.

i nodded and buried my head into your chest. "of course."

a/n: the end! thanks for reading this story! if you want an epilogue please comment! (: