if you fall for me...

i dont share

when i woke up. my father made sure i had a nice dress to ware. the dress looked like he pulled it out of a princess book. there was no way i was going to put on something that made me look like a giant pink marshmallow. next to it, i saw a simple purple T-shirt and jeans. there was a note taped to it.

your dad is hardheaded. he thinks you will dress up like that, because your mom lived to. i saved your life this time, you owe me

- Oriax

i smiled at the note. the dress looked like it could crush me. i picked of the shirt and jeans and got ready for the day. the bathroom was a swimming pool. i thought it would be huge, but i mean the think looked like it could have a pool party for china. the sink was even over kill. this was every girly girl's dream. there was cosmetics everywhere. in every color known to man. with every brand ever seen. from the cheapest dollar store brand, to the one you have to give an arm and leg for. in that order. i sighed.

"its no lie that every dad spoils their only daughter. even a demon does it." i washed up quickly, going through my human motions. being in the bathroom that big made me feel so tiny. "oops... i forgot to look for a towel...."

"don't worry, ma'am." a cute little girl walked in with a very soft towel. she was tiny, like skinny, with a face that would make anyone fall in love with her. she had fox ears and a large bushy fox tail. "my name is Saka. the master put me in charge of taking care of you." she helped me dry off. "thank you for allowing Styxx live. it makes me happy." i pulled away.

"why are you so happy? it shouldn't matter, hes nothing to you." i huffed. my hanger raised, as my temperature dropped. the water on the floor began to freeze. Saka giggled. it sounded like something close to bells.

"because, he's my boyfriend!" my blood stopped and froze in my veins. i looked at the tiny fox girl. her red hair short, circling her face. huge amber eyes. smooth skin. a lovely tiny smile. this was the face of the girl that Styxx took interest in. of course, girls like her would be better then girls like me. i was emotionally dead, and i always fought. with every advance Styxx made, i was careful enough to put up a new wall for him to climb..

"so your the one?" i took a deep breath and pulled myself together. "you can have him. i hate sharing anyways." i crossed my arms. "hes worthless, and has no appeal at all. i was going to end things  anyways. thanks for giving me a reason." i pulled on my clothes. the girl looked shocked at what i said.

"how can you say that about Styxx?" she seemed upset. i just shrugged. "your heartless! and cruel! i thought you were nice!" she was really upset.

"look, i'll let you on a little secret. i cant feel anything." i looked her hard in the eyes. "do you see any emotions? because the only thing there is, is pleasure in pain. the more the pain to my body, the better the pleasure. Styxx was to gentle. warm kisses, and soft caresses don't fill me enough." i turned away from the girl. "now go away. i don't need you anymore."

she ran out. i walked to the skin and picked up a container and smashed the mirror. my body was freezing. my skin was blue. there was tiny pings that echoed through the bathroom. it was the sound of my frozen tears hitting the marble, or other kind of stone counter top. my heart felt like it was being put through  a meat grinder. there was no other word to describe the pain i was in. the pain of knowing that everything that happened yesterday wasn't a dream.

"Auntie Silence..." Oroan touched my arm. he backed off quickly. "I'm sorry that Auntie is so sad, i wish i could make you feel better." i forced my tears to stop.

"its fine, thank you. I'm fine, its just that i cut my hand." i quickly swiped my hand on the broken glass. the cut exploded in a heat that melted everything away. i was no longer cold in my arms. "it feels so good, that's all. Auntie is just very cold. go on, i'll be out soon." even though he didn't buy it, he left with out a word. i leaned against the counter and picked up the glass. "i didn't think i would resort to this again." i began cutting myself, all over in placed that were frozen. soon i was burning in beautiful heat. i was warm, but my heart remained cold, it was a place the the pain couldn't reach.