if you fall for me...

what's mine is mine is mine. which means he's not yours

I took the very soul of my being and locked it away. Why should I suffer because Styxx doesn't want to be with me anymore? I don't need him. I never even wanted him. He always forced his self on me. I should hate him. I do hate him. I hate him so much I want to kill him. Its because I don't kill him, that makes me sick. Knowing he is alive and with another girl. I hate sharing. I hate him. 

"Are you ok? You don't look so good." A man asked me. He was tall. His long green hair looked like silk. The kind you cant hold onto. His black eyes entranced me. Large black and bloody wings lay folded behind him. I looked up at him. He was as beautiful as an angel. "Let me help you." He leaned into me. Our lips touched. My mind was stolen from me. All the anger was gone. his hands ran down my back, into my pants, I moaned.

"Ahshin. release your sister." my father commanded. "you can't go around and mess with your siblings as you like. incubus or not, it's not right. you make them not come home for family dinners." I was put down the man bowed to me.

"it's so nice to relax my sister. please command me as you wish." He took my hand and kissed it. I shivered. his touch was so soothing. the cold was gone. i shivered.

"ah! hold me!" i throw myself at him. as if he knew that i would, he picked me up, and cradled me. "this feels so nice. i want to stay... like... this..." everything went black.

*****

i was sitting in my throne. Styxx was walking toward me. my heart was beating so fast. we locked eyes. he looked at me with care. everyone around us whispered something that i couldn't make out. just because i was the daughter of a devil didn't mean that i understand their talk. i got out of my throne, and tried to talk. nothing came out of my mouth. fear rose in me. there was never a time i couldn't speak, unless i was that sick.

"my sweet, i missed you. I'm sorry for making you mad. that girl, she was nothing but play. i was just mad at all the men that came around you. i wanted to get you mad." Styxx reached out for my hand. "i killed her, and tossed her in a pit so she can never bother us anymore. so please for give me." i hesitated. slowly, i raised my hand to take his. my heart raced. in truth, somewhere deep in my heart, not having Styxx was like not having air. i know i can work around it, but it wasnt something that i want to do. its something that i don't want to think about. you silly. i smiled. how can i not forgive you? a hand shot from my chest and took his,

"of course silly." her high voice cooed. "how could i not forgive you? after all, no one will love you more then me." i turned around. my whole body felt as if it was numb. no, more then numb. it felt as if i was killed in the most gruesome way, and brought back to life just to do it all over again. the worst part was that my soul wasn't even there. it was as if it was frozen somewhere far away, then shattered in to pieces, and those where crushed up into smaller bits.

"Saka?" i spoke. she looked at me, as if she could really see me. her face twisted into a nasty grin. her teeth were sharp. her eyes black. blood stained her maid outfit. i looked around. everyone was dead. they were slaughtered like pigs. blood was in lakes, not puddles. some twitched, some groaned. one was screaming her head off in pain. 

"i cant thank you enough, Silence. this is a wonderful world you gave me. and now i have the most desired demon in all the realms of hell. to bad you had to die, or you can just go back to earth. i mean you don't want this to happen to you, right? your so young, and you have the chance to return to a normal human life. remember, you want to run away and start your own life. don't throw that away for someone like him. be smart." 

*****

"is she ok? there is no color in her face."

"is she having a nightmare?"