Secret Mind ✓

Diary entry 6 - "Language!"

As the footsteps grow closer I begin to hyperventilate, my vision going blurry.

My pace slowing as everything around me goes blurry. I try to feel something to grip on to steady my balance but I miss and fall slowly on the floor still taking heavy breathes.

I hear someone calling my name but I can't concentrate.

As my hands touch the cold tiled flooring I slowly drift. My eyes fluttering closed.

"Evangeline! Evangeline! Come on!" Drake screams worriedly as he lifts my head off the floor.

Me still breathing heavily, I begin to cry even more.

Leave me alone Drake!

I scream in my head.

"It's okay Evangeline. She's stupid. Listen to me. Don't close your eyes." He cups my cheek with his free hand.

My breathing slows down and my tears stop flowing.

My heart palpitating in my chest as he caresses my cheek.

"Evangeline? Are you okay?" He says softly.

I my breathing slowed but I am still breathing heavier then normal.

Drake lifts me up so I'm siting up on his lap.

"I'm-I'm f-fine. It was nothing. You d-didn't have t-to chase m-me." I stutter from my breathing.

"I didn't have to chase you? I had a choice and I chose to chase you. You were hyperventilating. You were crying." He says sadly. "Why was that bitch taking to you like that?" His voice grows angrily.

I wince at his choice of words. Sure Alison is a-a bad word but I still hate swearing with a passion.

"Sorry. Sorry. Did I hurt you?" He asks.

My breathing now at a normal pace but my hands are still trembling.

"Language." Was all I managed to say.

"What? You don't swear? Wait no. That's not important. Why was she saying those things to you?" His eyes widen and they land on the wall in front of him. "Oh my fuck. That's where you got those thoughts from."

"N-no. You know w-what. I...forget I said that. I love myself. Couldn't be happier." My voice picks up as I attempt convincing him that I'm fine.

He arches his eyebrow. "You are lying." He shakes his head. "Naughty girl."

By now my hands have stopped trembling and I had regained full composure.

I leapt out of his lap and slowly walked backwards. "Look. Thanks for the concern and all, but-" I stop and look down trying to organise what I want to say. "But I can fight my own fights. Next time please don't follow. Or talk to me. Ever." I say and with that I sprint to the music room.

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I texted Brian and Cassy that I wouldn't be going to the cafeteria for lunch today.

They already knew that whenever I text that it means that I've had a little problem and I need to be alone.

At the beginning they always used to pester me about being alone but now they have grown accustom to it.

I open the lid for the piano and begin playing my favourite song.

Pray by Justin Bieber. My fingers begin to hit the keys and I begin to sing.

"I just can't sleep tonight
Knowing that things ain't right
It's in the papers, it's on the tv, it's everywhere that I go
Children are crying
Soldiers are dying
Some people don't have a home
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey
Can you tell me how I can make a change"