GMW MAYA'S REALIZIATION

Chapter 21

Maya's POV:
As I wake up, I look around me to see Farkle sleeping next to me. Then all of last nights memories began rushing into my head. Farkle. His dad. I hate that Farkle had to go through this.....why would his dad do this..?! I look at Farkle as he begins to move around. I look around for my phone and see that it is 8 a.m. I sit and let out a puff of air. Now what? I glance at my surroundings and see a bag. Strange.... I never noticed Farkle brought a bag. I reach over and open it. I see some clothes and a toothbrush and etc. then I saw a book. A small book. It was hidden deep inside. I reach for it in curiosity and looked at the cover. 'Words for scientists' it read. I chuckle and open it. It had a second cover. 'Journal.....do not touch' was written on it. I gasped and realized he had a journal also. What could he possibly have used it for. I decided to think about if I should open it or not. No, it was too personal, after all he didn't push me about mine. I shake my head and put the book back inside the bag. I put the bag back where it was without waking Farkle. I sat back with Farkle still sleeping next to me and realized I had hid my journal under the pillow cushions. I look behind a pillow and see my journal sitting there. I grab it and smile widely as I was lucky it was here or I would have been bored to death. I take the pen out that was hiding inside and I flip to my most recent page. I write and do multiple things in there. But mostly I write songs and stuff. It's embarrassing and none of them are any good. I was finishing one I had already started when the whole Lucas and Riley love triangle was going on. It was called 'Smoke and Fire' this is actually my favorite piece I've written so far. I began lightly humming the tune when I saw Shawn walk in groggily rubbing his eyes. He looked over to me and said "hey kiddo" I looked over to him and said "hey Shawn" he walked to the fridge and poured himself a glass of orange juice. "How's Farkle...?" He asks concerned. I glance over at Farkle who was snoring lightly. I chuckle and say "I think he is ok for now" then Farkle shifted once again and wrapped his arm around my waist and he snuggled into me. Pink tinged my cheeks as I looked up at Shawn as he smirked. "Whatchya working on?" He asked walking over. I closed it before he could get closer. He stopped and said "oh your journal thingy....." I nodded and looked down. "Maya I don't know why you wouldn't even show me I'm the one who gave you the journal!" He said. I smiled and said "I'm very appreciative of that too, but I just feel really insecure about this one Shawn." He shrugged and said "well ok kid, you will tell me eventually." I shrugged and said "in your dreams hunter" he chuckled and asked "you hungry?" I nodded. "I'll go get some breakfast cause I'm too lazy to make it, make sure Farkle is ok when he wakes up...." He said walking out the door while grabbing his jacket "-traffic is bad so it might take a while..."I nod and he walks out. I sit back and work on my song for a while until I felt Farkle stiffen up. I glanced down at him and see that his face went pale. I looked around concerned at what happened. Then he started mumbling "-please-no-don't" he started shaking his head and whimpering. I realized he was having a nightmare. I wrapped my arms around him and began to trace circles on his shoulders. I then started caressing his face and he seemed to soften at my touch. I moved his hair away from his face and I kissed his forehead. Poor thing. I then began to feel sleepy. I think it was from the warmth of Farkle's arms around my waist but I fell asleep. And woke up to find Farkle mumbling and thrashing around. He seemed scared, I got up And lightly shook him "Farkle wake up..." I whispered. He still thrashed and mumbled "no more!" I shook him harder. I began to get worried. I got on top of him and started shaking him "Farkle wake up please!!!" I yelled scared of why he wasn't waking up. Then he shot up and began panting. I scooted back and rubbed circles on his back. He was clearly shooken up because I could feel him shaking. "Farkle are you alright?" He nodded but I knew he was lying. "Farkle you can tell me anything...." I say softly afraid he would shatter into millions of pieces. He looked at me with hurt and saddened eyes and said "I had another dream where my dad began doing more than just punching and kicking me" I shook my head and hugged him. "It will be ok I promise" he nodded and looked down. I hated seeing him so hurt. We were now sitting next to each other in silence. I stood up and said "I am going to change my clothes..." As I started walking I felt something grab my wrist. I turn around and see Farkle had grabbed my wrist he got up and pulled me into him. And he hugged me. I wrapped my arms around his neck in response and we stood there hugging. "Farkle I'm always here for you" I mumbled into his shirt. He sniffed and said "thank you Maya, this means the world to me" I could tell he was gonna cry, that dream really must have scared him. I leaned away wiped a tear off his face "please don't cry Farkle it kills me" I beg softly. He looks away and nods. I place my hand under his chin and turn him towards me "I love you" I say. He smiles softly and says "I love you too". Then we slowly lean in both of us longing for each other's lips on one another. As our lips connected I felt a spark run through my body that sent shivers up my spine. This kiss was different. It was filled with longing and sympathy. Farkle snaked his arms around my waist and pulled me to him as he sat on the couch. He pulled me into him and began to kiss my jawline. I move my hair to give him more access and also hinting him to go to my neck. He chuckled and moved lower to my neck and began sucking and biting gently on my weak spot. I let out a small moan and sighed into his touch. I turn around and place both my hands on his face and reconnected our lips to each other. I slid my tongue into his mouth and he let me enter. As we kissed i began pushing Farkle so he would lean back and now I moved to the positing where my legs were separated on either side of him. I placed my hands gently on his chest and began to trail kisses down to his neck. He sighed as I reached the border of where his cheek and jawline were. I unbuttoned one of his buttons on his shirt and he smiled. Once I reached his neck I began to gently nibble around and he let out a small moan of satisfaction. He placed his one arm draped across my waist and the other on my thighs bordering my butt. He pulled me closer to him and whispered "I need this Maya, this feels so good" I nod and began sucking on his neck with more pressure. He let out another soft moan and whispered "could you pop open another button?" I smirked as I worked my hands over to his shirt buttons and I popped open 3 more. I could now see his toned chest and I let my hands roam all over his chest. I then returned to his lips which he was currently biting and I closed the gap between us once again. Our tongues roamed each other's mouths, while my hand roamed his chest and the other ran through his soft hair and he moaned softly. Then I felt Farkle slide his hand up my shirt. Slowly but surely he slid it up to my back and I shivered at his warm touch. "Farkle....." I breathed out wanting for his his touch to go farther. He let out a soft sigh and said "Maya....." In his husky voice, which immediatly made me want to hear more of his voice. I felt the blood course through me, hot and thick, under his touch. Then Maya realized something. Farkle is hurting right now, he might just be pushing himself for romance thinking it is the answer. I let the kissing slow to a halt as we were breathing loudly from the the lack of oxygen. "Farkle.......we should stop before this get out of hand.....your hurting and this isn't the answer ok sweetie...?" I say gently. He looks at me and nods. Just then Shawn walked in carrying 2 bags from ihop. "Uhhhh" he stuttered out "am I interrupting something?" He asks slowly. I look down at us and see that Farkle's hands were still inside my shirt lingering on my lower back, and my hands were inside his shirt. I looked at Farkle and saw pink had tinged his cheeks. I looked down blushing also and I slowly began to remove my hands from the inside of his shirt, while at the same time Farkle removed his hands from my back and I could feel his warmth leave me. I got off him and he stood up. Shawn then cleared his throat and tugged at his shirt. Farkle looked confused and looked down and saw that 4 buttons were popped open on his shirt and his collar was slightly messed up. Farkle blushed and fixed his shirt and collar. "Yea um I brought breakfast so dig in...." He propped the food on the table and asked Farkle "are you ok?" Farkle nodded and smiled weakly. Shawn nodded and pat his back softly. A silencer fell over the table. Then Farkle spoke up "thank you guys for everything but umm im gonna have to go back eventually....." My eyes widened "your gonna go back?!" I ask suprised and shocked. He shook his head no and said "I will eventually but not now, I just thought it would be good if we had a plan on what to do when I decide to have to go back." Shawn nodded and said "I'll think about it but for now just get some rest ok?" He nodded and with that Shawn walked to his office. I looked over at Farkle as he played around with his food moving his food around the plate, for most which was empty anyway but had some leftovers in it. "Hey are you mad?" I asked worried at his silence. He looked at me and replied "what? Why would I be mad..?" "Because I stopped the kiss and stuff..." I answered nervously. He chuckled and said "why would I be mad at you? You were right and I might have gotten carried away at some point because of my emotions so no I'm not mad at you Maya......after all you have done I don't think I can ever be mad at you." I smile and grab his hand and he gives my hand a light squeeze and he gives a small smile.
~~~~~~~time skip 1 week~~~~~~~~
Farkle's POV:
As I woke up I looked around me and saw Maya asleep next to me on the floor. Instead of sleeping on the couch with limited space me and her agreed we could sleep on the floor with some blankets and we did, and it was actually better than sleeping on the couch. Anyway I sit up and begin to think. I should get back home. As much as I want to stay here I have to go back eventually, maybe he won't be there waiting maybe he is so mad he will avoid me. That could happen. What if he comes back and actually does do worse to me. Well then I'll have to come back to Maya and Shawn. I guess I should go today. I glance around for my bag and reach in to find my journal. I open it to my most recent page. I grab the pen that was lodged into it and click it slowly as to not wake up Maya. Sure Maya has her journal and I do too. I don't know what she does in hers but in mine I write poems. I know it's cheesy but I don't want people reading them because they contain my inner most thoughts. And a lot of people don't expect me to write poems, they probably expect me to write a science novel or something. I write poems that make people feel depressed. I write all the bad things so I can get it out of my system and it works. So far I have
                         'TROPHY'
I feel like a trophy
A prize that you brag
Something you never really look at basically an item with its tag
He doesn't talk to me
He acts as if it's ok
He goes away for months at a time and doesn't even call to say hi
I know about his affairs
He hides them from me
That's why she divorced him
She did it for the sake of peace
But I wish I went with her
I wish he didn't get custody
I don't want all the fancy stuff
I just want someone to need me.....
I wish I wasn't a stupid trophy
A bragging right
I wish I wasn't smart so I didn't have the option to be dragged around
But I guess It'll have to be
Because he is family
I'm stuck with this but I'll live
I have to for the sake of me
Trophy
I finished and Chewed on the end of my pen. I sometimes get depressed just reading my own writing. Just then I felt Maya shift and stretch. I ignored the movement and re-read what I wrote. Then I heard a voice ask "whatch'ya doing Farkle?" I turned and saw Maya looking at my journal curiously. I shut the book quickly and chuckled nervously and said "just a book, ah-um- science book you know me" she looked at me in disbelief. "Come on Farkle is this about your dad?" I glanced down avoiding her gaze. The poem. It was about him. She placed her hand on my shoulder and said "hey don't think about it" I nodded and slowly hid the journal. However this action did not go unnoticed. "Farkle why are you slowly hiding that book?" I froze and said "um I don't know what your talking about" she rolled her eyes and said "let me see it" as she reached over, I extended my arm out of her reach "uhh-you-you can't" I reply nervously. "Why not? isn't it just a book..?" She questioned rising one of her brows. "It's-um a private thing?" I say raising my voice nervously. "You mean a private journal?" She asks. I nod my head. "Oh" she says, she then stops teaching for the journal and sits back and says "you could have said that in the beginning" I shrug. Then she turns around and pulls out a journal. She hands it to me. I look at it confused. "It's my journal" she says softly. I looked at her and saw her blushing "you want me to read it?" She nods and bites her lip nervously. I observe the cover and ask her without moving my gaze "are you sure" she nodded. I realized what she was doing, she wanted to make a trade. To read mine in exchange for hers. She might get depressed though. I placed her journal down, and reached for my journal, I handed it to her and said "when you read it I don't want you to think of me any different, I am not in a bad mood it's just to get the negative out" she nodded and opened it. I picked up her journal and opened it also. As I flip through the pages I see they contained short stories, drawings but mostly lyrics to songs I've never heard. Then I realized it was because she wrote them. They were amazing and moving. I wonder if she could sing and play an instrument. As I read the lyrics I realized she had started this song when the love triangle was still a problem. It was catchy. I secretly glance at Maya from the corner of my eye and see her reading my journal. She smiled. Then a few seconds later she flipped the page and started reading and her smile disappeared. She placed her hand on her heart as if it were breaking. I put her book down once I've flipped through all the pages and I observed Maya. She flipped through the rest of my journal with different emotions dancing across her face. She puts it down and looked at me with big eyes. I glanced around nervously avoiding her gaze. She places her hand under my chin and lifts it up so our eyes meet each other. I could feel my blood getting thicker and running wildly as the heat rose to my cheeks. She chuckled and said "Farkle all I did was left your head up and your acting like I took my shirt off" I nervously chuckled and replied "I can't help it, what did you think about my journal?" She looks at me and says "I love them all, especially the one about 'the girl with the long blonde hair' she seems mysterious and enticing." I forgot that I wrote a lot about Maya in the beginning. She leaned in and softly traced my facial features with the silk touch of her hand. She then traced my lips and I could feel goosebumps race across my skin. I parted my lips slightly open as to show that I really did want to kiss her. She smiled and bit her lips. I closed the gap between us and immediatly felt her arms wrap themselves around my neck and I wrapped my arms around her waist. As we kissed I pulled her into me and now my back was to the ground and she was on top of me. Our tongues battling for control, her hands making their way in my shirt. I wrapped one of my legs around her legs and I ran my hands up and down her thighs trailing up to her butt. She sighed and I began to grope and massage her butt and she moaned out softly "F-Farkle...." I sighed and slid my hands higher up into the inside of her shirt. Now my hands were at the lower part of her back. I could feel her soft skin heat up from my touch. I then began focusing my attention to back to her face. I began treading kissing along her neck and along her collar bone. We ended up with her back to the floor and me on top. Her eyes sparkled with excitement as she whispered "I like this side of you...." I leaned in closer and whispered " which side?" She bit her lip and replied "every side" and winked. This drove me almost insane. I leaned into her neck and began sucking on her special spot and she moaned a little louder than before. Then in one swift motion she had gotten my shirt off of me and had started letting her hands roam free around my chest. She leaned in and began leaving butterfly kisses all over my chest and I could feel my heart beating so fast I was sure people across the world would classify it as an earthquake. I think she sensed my heartbeat and she looked into my eyes and whispered seductively "do I make you feel that crazy?" I nodded afraid my heart would explode. She then slid her hand down to the top part of my jeans. I could feel a boner begin to protrude from my pants. She was really turning me on, she then began to play around with the button of my jeans. She was teasing me and I could feel my boner deciding to play along. It was getting to the point where it almost hurt. I grunted and i saw her smile. "Looks like someone wants to play" she teased smirking at how she seemed to get me bothered. I then blushed and noticed Maya was wearing a button up pajama shirt. I smirked and flipped her over and now she was under me once again. I began to lightly tease her by kissing her around her mouth but as I finally reached her mouth I moved my hand up at the same time. So while I was kissing her I had distracted her and had popped open two buttons. Maya then opened her eyes and saw that I had tricked her. She blushed and began kissing me once again clearly aroused by what I had accomplished. I had begun planting kisses down her throat and she had let out a high pitched moan. This was new but I liked it. Then I saw another button had popped open and I saw it was becuase Maya had done it herself. She blushed. Then I realized she wanted this more than I did. I chuckled and looked at how many buttons had been opened and it was 3. Then I realized I could see some of her bra with her breasts overfilling her bra by just a little bit. I smiled and trailed the kiss in between her breasts and she let out a small squeal. I then heard a cough. We looked up and saw Shawn wide eyed. We roll away from each other startled and we get up blushing a deep red. Shawn seemed to be frozen. Maya gasped and turned around. I looked confused and saw her grimacing as she buttoned up her shirt. I blushed realizing that Shawn might have seen that. I looked down at my feet and realized I was shirtless. I gasped and looked around for my shirt. I found it near Maya and I walked over and picked it up gingerly and put it on. Maya then asked "Shawn....? Are-you-Um ok....?" No response. "Shawn?" He shook his head as to try and get something out of his head. He opened his mouth and pointed at me but his face turned into confusion. "He-you-kissing-there?!" He stuttered not really making sense. Me and Maya blushed and looked down. "S-sorry" I said. Shawn looked at me and scratched his head awkwardly. "Farkle can I talk to you for a second....?" He asked. I nodded grimly and followed him into a bedroom. "Who started it?" He asked. I looked down and mumbled "mayastartedit" "what?" He said clearly not understanding what I had just said. I glanced around the room and said "Maya started it" he nodded. Then he said "how?" I explained to him about the whole journal thing but I didn't tell him what was in either journal. He seemed shocked because she showed me her journal. "She must really trust you...." He said. I nodded awkwardly. "Have you guys ever done 'it'?" He asked nervously. I blushed and looked at the floor with intense concentration. Then I shook my head no. He let out a puff of air. "Then what-was all that?!" He asked gesturing towards me and the wall behind me supposedly Maya. I shrugged. "Farkle......." I glanced around the room and whispered "your gonna kill me if I answer honestly" he chuckled and said "I'm not gonna kill you, and hey I can tell you that I have had my share of these things when I was younger" I smiled and ran my hand through my hair and said "do you promise not to be bias when I tell you and not freak out?" He thinks about it for a second then nods. I then say "ask anything then I'll answer honestly" he nods then says "have you ever done this much before?" I look at him and say "no this was actually the first time I've had my shirt off and her shirt half opened" he nods and then asks "where exactly have you touched her....?" This time my face turned red and I gulped and said "um-what do you mean...? By touch you mean like with my hands...?" He nodded chuckling at my discomfort.  I pulled at my shirt and said "uh um well with my hands I mean I have never intentionally touched her where she felt uncomfortable I've just you know occasionally touched her um...butt and uh today the inside of her shirt specifically her lower back and her thighs." I could see Shawn redden from my answer. Then he asked "do you guys....um French kiss?" "Unless it's supposed to be a quick kiss most of the time it's a French kiss" Shawn nodded then continued to grill me and asked "how do you see Maya...um...physically....?" I must have looked confused because he then added "physically...you know her body..?" My eyes then widened with realization of what he was asking. "Oh um...I am gonna be honest sir, Maya.....has the body of an angel......she drives me crazy" I looked up at him to see his reaction and Shawn seemed to feel awkward about my answer. "Ok I have only a few questions left....-" I nodded "um has she ever caused you to ever have a......um..." He struggled at a loss of words "has she ever gotten you..excited...?" I blushed at what he was asking and I nodded. Shawn blushed then asked "has she ever......um....touched you.....there...?" At this I froze and wondered if I should tell....... He took my silence as an answer. He seemed shocked. "Wait wait wait your telling me she touched your-" I cut him off by covering his mouth with my hand. "Look when I tell you this you better not say I told you it, or let her know that you know but she didn't actually touch it I had my pants on she just um......she just pleasured me......" I whispered. Shawn nodded and I backed away. I then said "Shawn what do I do? Cause I really don't wanna go back home..." Shawn softened up and said "you want to go back...?" I glanced around and put my hands in my pocket and said "well it is home, and I don't wanna trouble you guys......and plus I doubt he will strike again, and if he does I'll come back..." He nods. I then say "if I text you before I get there that means the damage was bad and that Maya probably shouldn't be there....." He nods and says "hey be careful would ya....?" I nod and reply "I'll try" we then walk out together and see Maya writing in her journal. Her cheeks tinge pink and she says "well...?" I walk over to her and smile and say "we talked about whether I should go home and I think it's time I should go back....." Her smile disappears and she asks "was it because of what happened?" Shawn shook his head and said "no it's not" Maya nods and I explain to her how I need to go home eventually. She nods and says "well be safe and if anything happens make sure to come here" I nod and she gives me a quick hug and a peck on the cheek. I then head over and get my bag and walk out the door but I yell behind my shoulder "bye guys!" And I hear their response "bye!" And with that I head to the subway. Once I get to my condo I head for my room. I pause and take a deep breath. I shake my head and open the door. I cringe and open my eyes slowly to see no one there. I sighed a breath of relief and head to my bedroom. I flop onto my bed and take a nap. When I wake up and check the time and it says 6:30 p.m . I sigh and and get up I call one of my butlers and they bring me dinner. "You know your father is angry with you...." My butler said while I started to eat. I nodded and asked "is he here...?" He shakes his head no. I nod grateful. But then my butler leans into me and whispers "but I think he will stop by" I froze. What if he hurts me again.....? "Today?" I ask shakily. He shakes his head no. Phew. "Well ok, thank you Sam" he nods and heads out the door. As I finish my meal I go back in my room and change into new pjs. As soon as I changed I went straight to bed. I didn't wanna deal with everything.
~~~~~~~~~morning~~~~~~~~~~~~
I felt the sun shine on my face and I realize it was morning. I yawn and get up. I look in my mirror and see my black eye had ceased it black color and is now returning back to normal. I check my stomach and back and they seem to be going away too. I yawn once again and take my shirt off as I prepared to get into the shower. As I walk out of my room shirt and towel in hand I hear a voice "Farkle....." "Ah!" I yell startled by the voice. I froze. It was him. I turn around and see him sitting on one of my spinning chairs with a bunch of beer bottles surrounding him. Oh boy. I think he was drunk, I've never seen him drunk and I was scared. "Uh-um hello father" I say shakily. He walks over to me and yells in my face "DONT ACT LIKE EVERYTHING IS OK YOU LITTLE SON OF A BITCH!! YOU BETTER NOT TELL ANYONE AND LOOK WHAT I GOT YOU!!!!" And then he pulled out another bell. My face went cold. He began ringing it and I dropped to my knees and tried to block out the sound. "LISTEN YOU MOTHER FUCKER!!!" I grimaced. Then as I was about to slap the bell away again he grabbed my wrist and flipped me over, then grabbed a beer bottle and hit my chest with it. I gasped from the impact. I couldn't breathe for a second and I heard a ringing in my ears. I looked over and saw blood. Aw man...... I slowly got up and my father laughed. "I know you told someone...I can feel it!" He screamed. "Your basing this on a 'you can feel it' situation?!" I ask yelling in return. He nodded and tried to throw another beer bottle at me but I ducked in time and it shattered on my wall. "Please dad no more!!" I yell. He threw another one to my face and I turned around and it hit my upper back. I winced from the pain. He laughed and walked away and said "don't think you can disappear for a week and not get punished" and with that he walked out. I didn't even bother washing off the blood. I stomped all the way to their apartment. I called Shawn on the way.
~~~~~~~~phone call~~~~~~~~~~
F:Farkle.             S:Shawn
F:Shawn....?
S:Farkle? Hey what's going on?
F: looks like I'm wrong for the first time........
S:what happened....?
F: he hit me Shawn but this time it is worse...... Is Maya awake....?
S:nah she sleeps till 12 usually and right now-it's 9:30.
F: yeah Um I don't want her to see me like this, this is really bad.
S: ok........
F:bye....
S:bye.........
~~~~~~~~~~end call~~~~~~~~~~~
Shawn's POV:
Farkle said it was bad so I went to check on Maya. She was sound asleep. I  sighed and closed the door. I walked over to the couch and ran my hand through my hair. I was nervous how bad could it be...? Maybe he beat him....? Why won't he let us tell the Matthews....? We just wanna help....