GMW MAYA'S REALIZIATION

Chapter 22

Shawn's POV:
It was morning and I honestly can't say I had a good sleep. It just-I keep thinking about Minkus.....how could he do that to his own son....? And to think he was in me and cor's class in grade school. I shake my head to clear my thoughts I get out of bed and go check on whoever is awake. I looked at my alarm clock and saw it was 11:30 a.m. I yawned and looked at the other side of the bed. Katy's side of the bed was neatly made, she usually wasn't here in the mornings cause she is usually at The hangout 'Topanga's' to work. But this time she is actually out because she is visiting her parents and frankly I didn't want to go through that process. She left a while ago and I am glad I stayed behind cause I would have been a mess. Anyway I walk through the door to see Maya's door still closed so she is still asleep I glance around the room and see Farkle sitting on the couch with his head in his hands. I walked over and saw his head slowly falling down as his hands failed to carry his head and he fell forward and startled he woke up and saw me staring at him and screamed. I'm not proud to say this but that scared me so I screamed.then we both screamed and then Maya burst in and said "what happen?!"and ofcourse that scared us and we screamed again. Then Maya held her hands out and said "stop stop- calm down its just me!!" We stopped screaming and took a couple of breathes to gain our sanity back. I cleared my throat and said "uhhh mm sorry bout that Farkle...." He lifted his head and looked at me and gave a weak smile and said "it's-um it's ok" I nodded and looked over and saw Maya standing there half asleep. "You guys are insane you know that...?" She mumbled. Farkle chuckled and got up wearily and walked over to her. "Come on Maya.....back to bed....." He said trying to guide her back to her room. She wouldn't budge. "Carry me" she mumbled holding her arms out. Farkle looked at me with a she's-crazy look. But nonetheless he picked her up bridal style but didn't seem to be moving. He set her down and said "I don't have the strength to carry you that way" "carry me however it takes baby...." She replied with her eyes half closed.i must have had a shocked face because Farkle looked at me for approval and I shrugged. I have never heard Maya refer to him that way and frankly it felt weird to hear it from her. He nodded and bent over and grabbed her at her knees and threw her over his shoulders. "How's that?" He asked smiling. "Just fine....." She mumbled. He chuckled and carried her off to her room. A second later he returned with a grimace on his face and said "that was painful...". I walked over to the fridge and got him an ice pack and handed it to him. "Come on we should get to Cory and Topanga" he nodded as he grabbed the ice pack and set it on his shoulder/back. As I grabbed the doorknob I saw Farkle write something on a piece of paper from his journal and he left it on the table. I looked at him questioning and he said "I wrote Maya a note when she wakes up and doesn't freak out or something" I nodded and said "your still that good kid aren't you Farkle?" He smiled and shrugged and he walked out the door in front of me. I closed the door behind me and we headed to the Matthews apartment. When we got there it was a pretty sad thing having to repeat everything that happened. Topanga and Corey had tears in their eyes as Farkle took his shirt off to show them the marks. I turned towards the Matthew pair and see them gasp. As I see Topanga's face this was one of the few times I've ever seen tears fall on her face, besides the time of her parents divorce. Topanga seemed to know exactly what to do and started working on the case while Corey talked to Farkle. "Ok Farkle I need you to keep up the charade that you didn't tell anyone until we are sure Topanga has all the evidence to win, your father is a very rich man....." Farkle's face was stoic. "He's not my father....." Farkle growled. Corey seem taken aback, Topanga jumped up and walked over to Farkle "I know Farkle I understand your angry but trust me holding grudges doesn't do anything and I know a thing or two on that with fathers, I understand". Farkle shook his head

Farkle's POV:
"I know Farkle I understand your angry but trust me holding a grudge doesn't do anything and I know a thing or two about that with fathers,I understand" Topanga said to me as she rubbed my back softly as we were sitting on the couch. No she doesn't know, her father did not hurt her! He didn't throw a beer bottle at her did he?! Nobody knows...... And it makes me angry how they think they know what I'm feeling. As I was going to say all this I bit my tongue and realized they were helping me so I just looked down to avoid their gaze and nodded. The anger bubbled underneath my skin, it ran a course through my body and it was unfamiliar and I could feel control slipping away. I stood up abruptly I walked over to Shawn and leaned in and whispered "there has to be a gym....." Shawn realized I was angry and said hastily "well thanks so much Matthews for the help we gotta go before--um Maya wakes up! Yea! So uh have a nice day!" And pushed me out the door. He led me outside where there was a park across the block and he looked at me and set me on a pavement path that led to it. He stared me in the eye and said "I want you to run as fast as you can from here to there as many times as you need, try not to die" I nodded as I realized this was a new method he was trying. I took off and began jogging at first. I needed to get the anger out so I replayed the events that happened with the Matthews and how they said they "understood how It feels". They don't... I began running. The anger kicked in at last and I started running faster. The adrenaline was pumping throughout my body and it felt good. My lungs burned from the action but I ignored it. I must have zoned out from anger because when I stopped at shawns feet breathing heavily he said "you ran for 15 min. Straight without stopping........I honestly don't know why you failed gym......" I chuckled weakly from the ground and said "I faint when health class starts..." He chuckles and extends his hand. I grab it and get up. "Um-thanks-Shawn-I-I-don't-know-what-happened-" I said in between breaths. He looked at me worryingly and said "Farkle are you ok...? Lately you seem more...umm....impatient...?" I shrugged and said "I'm sick of people telling me they understand Shawn.....I'm not trying to be mean but Topanga said she knows what it's like and she understands the anger but I don't think she does Shawn! She doesn't understand the TYPE of anger I'm dealing with she is not dealing with 'my father hit me' angriness! So it just angers me how they think they understand I don't know what's wrong with me Shawn...!" Shawn looks at me worriedly. I stood and paced around him and ran my hands through my hair "I think I'm loosing my mind Shawn!! I-i don't know what's gotten into me! I'm pretty sure this all started because of me! Me and my stupid mouth...! I don't know what happened I just got the urges to be rebellious.... And-and I feel like disobeying every rule... Hell! I've cursed ten times as much as I have EVER! I-i think I'm going insane" Shane burst out laughing. I turned to him astounded "Shawn!!!? It's not funny!! I could be sick!" He laughed even harder clutching his sides "Farkle stop your killing me....." I crossed my hands over my chest angrily. "Ok-ok Farkle listen to me you are not going crazy everything you have just described...? That's called being a teenager.....!! I'm guessing it hit you late because you're more in control of your emotions but I guess they are letting loose". I stood there wondering if he was right. Maybe. Then Shawn grabbed my shoulder and said "Farkle you are a teenage boy being hormonal ok? It's part of being a teenage boy along with other changes..." He trailed off. Oh no not health class again! I fainted. When I opened my eyes Shawn was looking over me and said "Farkle!!" He was waving his hands over my face. "Wha-what happened?" I asked as Shawn hoisted me up. He dusted me off and said "I'm pretty sure you fainted because of a health speech I just gave" I nodded and shuddered. "Let's go kid" he said and with that he led me along the pavement. I winced inwardly as my muscles hurt from running so much. As we entered the apartment we looked around for Maya. We saw that she had eaten breakfast and saw the note. We looked around and saw another note 'FARKLE AND SHAWN I WENT OUT TO GET THINGS DONT
WORRY BOUT ME -MAYA' "why did she write in all caps...?" Shawn asked no one in particular. I shrugged and said "she likes dramatic effect...." He nodded smiling and asked "did you sleep?" I shook my head no. "Maybe you should rest while Maya's still not here so she doesn't stuff your mouth with her tongue." Shawn said smiling obviously teasing me. I rolled my eyes and said "hey I wouldn't mind...." His eyes widened and said "hey...."in a warning time. I chuckled and laid my head down on the couch "relax hunter I'll save it for when you leave us alone" Shawn stared wide-eyes. I snapped my eyes open that somehow got closed. "That!! That right there Shawn! I don't know why I just said that....!! I- I'm never like that especially to an adult. And I would never say that to you out of all people......!" I rambled and Shawn began to smile as he cut me off and said "Farkle! Calm down I understand the teenage hormones I've done a lot as a teenager because of the hormones don't blame yourself......but trust me it gets worse from here....." I looked at him questioningly "umm....I'm sorry what....?" He chuckles and says "unless you want a health speech...." My eyes widened and I cut him off "no!" He chuckled and said "yea ok....". Silence. "Yea I'm gonna take a nap...." I say closing my eyes while laying in the couch. "Ok" Shawn said and I could hear his footsteps leaving the room. I don't know how long I fell asleep but when I woke up I saw that the sun had set and when I turned around I ended up bumping into someone. Well it wasn't someone I think it was a pillow. As my eyes adjusted to the darkness I saw that it was Maya and that I was right in front of her........boobs.....oh god. I automatically felt a boner jump into action. I winced at the sudden bolt of excitement that rang through my body. I didn't know whether or not I should stay in this position or move. Well I mean the view isn't that bad.....what's the point in lying the view is amazing, I never realized how big her boobs were. Shawn is going to kill me. I tried to turn away but I couldn't.....how many times do you get a chance like this....?! Wait what am I thinking she is asleep...what kind of sicko am I....?! I force my self to shift my body the other way so the position is not as intimate. I sighed as I felt my boner begin to relax. That is starting to hurt now....... Why does it hurt more than it usually does...? Ok what is wrong with me..?! Why am I thinking like this....?! I don't understand..... This is like a mental breakdown is this even safe?!?! I shake my head and get up. I look at the time and it said 10 p.m. I got up groggily and went to find Shawn. I had to talk to him about this hormonal thing..... It's driving me crazy. I look around and see the office With its lights on. I sigh and knock lightly. No response. I open the door slightly and see Shawn hunched over a journal. I coughed to alert him with my presence and with that he looked up and smiled wearily "oh hey Farkle I didn't see you there it's 10 you should probably sleep" he said as he yawned. I shrugged and rubbed the back of my neck awkwardly. Maybe this was a bad idea. I can't do it this is too awkward. No I have to or it will drive me crazy. "Uh-I um....I wanted to talk to you about something" I stuttered nervously. He stopped writing and looked up at me and asked "you ok..?" I shook my head no. He put his pen down and pushes his stuff away from him "thank god a distraction...." I chuckled and sat down across from him. "So um remember that whole health thing you were talking about...?" I asked trailing off as I felt my face burn with embarrassment. "Yea...." He nodded cautiously eyeing me. "What about it?" He asked. I ran a hand through my hair and let out a breath of air "can-we- umm talk about-that...?" I asked nervously feeling awkward about the conversation already. I could tell he was becoming embarrassed too but he sounded calm "um-yea sure-uh what's bothering you...?" He asked calmly. I shook my head and said "I'm-having bad dreams...." I say. He looked confused "nightmares.....? What do nightmares have to do with health..?" He asked. I shook my head and said "not nightmares I mean like bad dreams.....like thoughts.....thoughts I'm not supposed to have....." He looked at me quizzically. "I- don't understand.... Farkle just use the words don't avoid the awkward words......" He said trying to get me to expand my vocabulary. I nodded slowly and said "I am having bad thoughts, like naughty thoughts...." Shane seemed to be suprised at my wording because he dropped the papers he was working on as he turned towards me I'm suprise. "Oh-um that...." He said trailing off. I nod already wanting to bury myself in a hole. "Farkle I'm telling you it's normal....... Teenage boys have hormones and those hormones create visual needs or wants and that's what almost everybody well every guy wants" Shawn said carefully as to not make me faint. I looked at him and said "but-it's never happened so why does it have to start now...? I get so uncomfortable, every little thing just bothers me" he looks at me and says "bothers you....?" I look away and say "yea.....bothers" Shawn looked at me skeptically "as in....?" He trailed off telepathically finishing the sentence. I nod. "You and Maya haven't done anything in a while.... So I don't know what your talking about....." He says getting confused at what I said. I shook my head and said "no she doesn't even have to touch me anymore she could basically just sneeze and I would just-" I telepathically finished the sentence. He nodded and said "yea that happen, next thing you know it feels even more painful than the last one" I looked at him and almost went over to hug him. So everything I am feeling is normal. I look at Shawn and say "what do I do around Maya then...? I have already felt the pain and I really don't wanna go through that.... I'm in enough already" he glanced around the room and said "try not to think about it" I sigh and say "is there another way...?" He looks at me unsure of himself. "There's another way...?" I ask. He looked away and said "I don't think you would wanna do this now at this point, come to me when it hurts even to the point where you can't walk" I nod and get up. "Um-thanks Shawn" he nods and says "yea.... No problem" I turn to leave and then I say over my shoulder "this is probably one of the most embarrassing things that's happened so far," he chuckles and says "yea I know". "You know she is asleep on the couch....?" I say. He glances around tiredly and says "Let me see" and with that he walks with me and we stare at her while she slept. "Should we leave her there....?" I ask. He shrugged. "I mean she is sleeping on the couch with her whole body shifted off the couch she should be fine......" I look over at him and see him teasing me. I roll my eyes playing around and say "great then you carry her" he looks at me and hold his back "I'm too old...." I shake my head and walk over to her. There. I felt my Boner. Aw man I didn't even do anything. She didn't even do anything!! SHES ASLEEP FOR CRYING OUTLOUD! I freeze. Concentrate on anything else but the Boner, maybe it won't hurt that much. I shake her shoulders and say "Maya get up....." She turns away from me. I sigh tiredly and say "I don't know how she wakes up for school" Shawn chuckles and says "welcome to my life" I pick Maya up bridal style and it still hurt my back and chest. But then I felt a pang shoot through the my lower body. Damn boner. I grimaced. "You ok Farkle...? Your chest still hurts...?" He asked worriedly. I shake my head no and mumble "it's not that...." Shawn realizes what I meant and he smirks and offers to carry Maya. I shake my head and make my way to her room and drop her off in her bed. I come back still in pain with my lower body. Shane was just there smirking and he said "it's gonna get worse when she actually does do something to you...". I lay on the couch and say "I think she'll be the death of me" he smiles and says "I thought that would be me...." I looked over to him and said "ehh your not so bad Shawn." He smiles again and says "I'd hope not" and with that I fell asleep.