If I Stay (Lauren/Camila/You)

Chapter 22

"What is depression like?" She whispered, Lauren felt her breathing hitch in the back of her throat and her eyes fulfill with water.

She pulled Camila closer to her side and cleared her throat remerging the tragic memory in her mind.

"It's like drowning," Lauren voice cracks in emotion closing her eyes momentarily to control her composure before she continued. 

"Except you can see everyone around you breathing," She felt Camila's grip tighten around her waist as a tear had slipped out of Lauren's eyes.

Sitting momentarily Camila's eyes awoken from the current words Lauren just said and all had dawned into her thoughts and memories.

"Did I do this too you Lauren?" Camila's voice shattered in hurt and worry as she looked up too Lauren for an awaiting answer.

Lauren's eyes shut and tear had traveled down her cheek as she turned her head looking at the city view. Camila's eyes started too fulfill with sorrow and fear that she was correct, that Lauren felt this way because of her.

Lauren's mind was filled with so many different types of emotions that she knew if she told Camila she was correct that Camila would be very hurt because she had no idea, but if Camila denied it than Lauren would fill with anger and run off like she usually did with situations like these.

Lauren's mind sat and Camila's eyes only got bigger and worrier still begging for hope.

"Yes," Lauren said quietly, "Yes you did do this," Camila felt her heart drop into a deep ditch that she would never be able too dig herself out of.

"You left me in the dust when the Camren rumors came along, when our manager told us too separate for a little, you completely left me too be alone like I didn't exist," Lauren felt the anger build up in her heart.

"You went straight too Diyah and Normani and became the best of friends with them and left me in the dust for 6 months straight!" Lauren shouted making Camila jump in fright.

Lauren looked sternly down at the brown eyed brunette. Camila's eyes flickered downwards at the grown intimately.

"I didn't mean too hurt you.." she whispered Lauren shook her head verbally, "But you did! You've been hurting me ever since I freaking fell for you in Brazil." And the words finally left Lauren's mouth.

Camila's eyes widen from the sudden confession the emerald eyed beauty just made. "Fell for me..?"

Lauren felt the defeat fill in her face, she finally broke down and admitted it too the brown eyed girl about her feelings.

"Yes. Fell for you," she confirmed in murmur. Camila's eyes soften understanding why the brunettes feelings were once so hurt and broken.

"I didn't know.." was all Camila could say at the moment. Lauren broke and another tear had dispersed from her eyes realizing that nothing was going too change how the brown eyed brunette saw her.

"It doesn't matter anymore," Camila was taken back by Lauren's tone of voice. She could tell that Lauren was breaking and hurting.

The brown eyed beauty sat still and thought of all the memories she had with Lauren. As the memories started too freely flow throughout her head and heart, she felt a tingle shimmer down her stomach and her heart beating faster.

Maybe the green eyed beauty isn't the only one falling.

Camila's face scrunched up in distraught and realizations. Looking down at Lauren, Camila grabbed her cheeks and made the brunette look up too her. Lauren looked up puzzled, The brown eyed girl pulled Lauren's face towards her own and leant her forehead against hers, lips nearly hating each other's.

"I'm falling for you too," Was all Camila whispered before connected her lips against the other brunettes lips. Lauren felt her eyes widen from the sudden movement Camila had made.

Shutting her eyes Lauren found herself losing herself in the brown eyed girls lips.

Latching herself closer too the green eyed brunette, Camila had climbed on top of Lauren, sat on her abdomen and peeled her shirt off of herself.

Lauren's eyes dropped and admired down at Camila's body. "What are you doing?" Lauren whispered as Camila started kissing on her neck.

"I want you too take me," Camila mumbled against the brunettes neck making Lauren shiver beneath her.

"Take you where?" Lauren questioned, Camila stopped, moved towards Lauren's ear and started tracing shapes around her earlobe .

"Too Neverland," Camila whispered and started placing small kisses against her ear. Lauren smiled drought-fully at the young memory.

Camila always had a thing for the movie Peter Pan, the two brunettes would watch it just for Camila's entertainment and dreams about traveling too Neverland.

A place of peace calmness and euphoria.

"take me too that euphoria.." Camila moaned quietly as Lauren had rolled them over and took charge. 

Lauren looked down at the brunette carefully and studied her too make sure she was okay with it. Camila knowingly knew the brunette was questioning the idea, nodded her head to confirm this is what she wanted.

Lauren peck the brown eyed girls lips before stripping the rest of the girls clothing.

And with that, she took her too Neverland.

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for the people that were wondering what's going on between the two ^ this can kinda draw a little bubble in your head about things. A little flashback for y'all too understand better.