Dear Maria, It Was Always You... Rian Dawson (All Time Low) ON HOLD***

Chapter 14

Cee

I didn't mind Alex it was his act that upset me so much. As I got in the car with Jack and Jewels I pulled my wig off. I sat thinking in the backseat while Jewels and Jack made cute faces at each other. When we got home I saw Rian's car sitting in the driveway. I smiled and climbed out of the car slapping the handprint and leaving Jewels to explain everything to Jack including her real name. I climbed up the stairs and found Rian asleep on my bed. I chuckled before tossing my wig at his face. He shot up and looked around.  “Get your ass up boy.”

“What time is it?”

“I dunno. We just got home.” I said leaning in and kissing his cheek. I pulled away and he had concern written on his face.

“Can I talk to you?” Ok weirdo what is going on here?

“Sure thing” We sat in silence as he drummed his fingers on the covers.  I sat in a my dancing outfit and one of Rian’s tshirts.  “Is everything ok?” I asked, was this it was he picking the band over me?

He looked at me and nodded and I felt my heart drop in my chest as if he could read my thoughts.  “Yeah Actually, it’s great.  Uh… Matt called, and were going to tour with a band we’re friends with because they need another supporting band”  I felt relief wash through my whole body before I let a smile fall across my face.  “”Oh Rian! That’s awesome!”  He looked generally surprised.

“Uhhh…

“I’m happy for you. I know love touring, or you wouldn’t do it. So there’s absolutely no reason for me to not be happy. I’ll be waiting right here when you get back”

“You could always come with us” and risk everything with Alex.  No thank you, I could do school online but I don’t wanna be on a bus with Alex.  I have enough money saved but I can’t let Rian know its cause of Alex.

“I can’t take off work” He pouted and I giggled at him. He smiled

“Well, at least come to the first show?”

“Of course” I could deal one night with Alex right?

            The next week pasted by quickly.  I don’t know when we had to give Freckles back but we had all become amazingly attached to the horse sized dog.  Rian wasn’t too fond of him at first but everyone got used to him. I personally think Rian was just jealous I had another male in my life I loved more than him.  We were on our way to the venue.  I was just going to ignore Alex.  I ignored all the yelling and sat in my head until I heard Rian and Zack talking about the end of All Time Low.  Rian was talking about quitting and I could see in Zack’s eyes the pain. That’s when I realized I walked in and was killing their dreams, not that Zack would ever admit that. I would rather not be the link that broke them up. I'll talk to Rian after the show. I watched them play and was watching the happiness on all of their faces. I couldn't ever take that away and if being there meant I did well then... I was deep in thought when I heard a familiar beat. I looked up in shock and straight at Rian.

“I'm so sorry” he mouthed. I was shocked. Why would they play this song? It wasn't like it was their most popular song and I knew they were gonna play it. Someone picked this song of purpose. Judging by the fact that Jack and Zack stayed in the same spot and barely looked up while Rian kept glancing at me, this was a last minute switch up. I was just gonna grin and bear it, till Alex changed the lyrics. I stood silently as the tears trailed down my face. The crew avoided looking at me. Jack glanced at me with a neutral expression till he saw the tears then he frowned. Rian couldn't see my face well since he was far away but he looked worried and angry. He hit his drums with way too much force and I found myself crying harder. By the time the song had ended I was trying to leave. One of the techs was trying to stop me but I freaked when he tried to grab me thinking of that night a few weeks before and punched him straight in the face. Everyone else backed up and I heard Rian calling my name but I ran. He caught up with me. I realised Alex just wanted to protect Rian from me. I needed space. I told Rian not to follow me and I could tell I hurt him by using his first name. I ended up walking down the street before a nice group of kids offered me a ride home.