CODE RED (Book 1)

Trusting You

Trusting You- 7

I watched and waited as Alex stared down at my knife wound for a very long time.

There was no going back. Alex knew the truth and he knew what injuries I had been hiding. The old and the most resent. Things would change now I knew that for a fact but one thing kept me anxious and questioning myself. Was I prepared for these changes?

The question had me thinking about my. . .dad. The word "Dad" made me cringe. If I wasn't a son of his then he sure as hell wasn't a father of mine and I was glad to think that. He was crazy and it made me wonder why he would want to hurt or kill me or my mom? That question in my mind popped up a lot, but unanswered. I wondered if I'd ever know the true reasons of his abusive and threatening actions?

I understood why he went out with other woman at night behind my mothers back but why would he do something so. . .selfish and ignorant, I thought he loved my mother? It didn't make since and it didn't help the situation that he was a drinker of alcohol. Hell. . .I could still smell the stench right now as I sat in Alex's bed room on the carpeted floor as he still examined my once painful knife wound. It had healed quickly since it hadn't been that deep.

He shook his head. Finally he looked up at me." I'm sorry," he hesitated."But I don't think I can keep your secret."

I stood up quickly so fast that it caused him to flinch ever so slightly. I felt the sudden emotions of panic and fear take over me. "What do you mean you can't keep it," I snapped as anger edged it's way into my voice.

I had just told him a life or death secret that I only entrusted him with and here he was throwing it away, basically telling me that he would tell anyone of the secret I had tried so hard to keep to myself out of the fear I had of getting myself and my mom hurt or most importantly killed.

"I might just be speaking out of feeling sorry for you but. . .this Gareki is much more then you could ever imagine. Something seriously bad can happen to you if you don't get help."

"Alex." I interrupted as I crouched down at eye level with him. This is something I can't control, try to understand what I'm talking about. I can't tell anyone."

"I know that but there has to be someone you could tell besides me," he spoke firmly trying to get his point through to me. His steal grey eyes were scanning my face with their unique design. I noticed from a closer inspection that there were little white specks circling around the pupil embedded in the steal grey.

I swallowed hard wishing I could tell someone else besides just Alex but there wasn't anyone."My dad is the head leader of the police squad, I can't talk to the fire department, school counselor, a teacher, or even my mother about any of this because they're all linked to him. He knew I wouldn't be able to tell anyone but I told you since I trust you, don't change my opinion that I have about you."

What ever I had just said must have made a bigger impact then what I knew of because the next thing I knew Alex was crying. Not full on weeping. . . but I did see tears begin to well in his eyes. I knew it must have been hard not be able to tell someone of other peoples troubles especially mine.

He nodded letting go of the fact that I wouldn't allow him to tell this to anyone." Alright." he hesitated once more as he continued to look at me." Alright, I'll keep your secret, I promise."

I couldn't help but give him a small smile in relief. The panic and fear left me like a wave dispatching from a shore line and I could breathe more easily again."Thank you."

He smiled a small smile back at me before turning serious."But Gareki, If something really serious happens to you, I'm getting you help and that will mean I'll have to tell people. I'll find a way to get you back to safety and that goes for your mother to."