CODE RED (Book 1)

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I sighed in annoyance as I watched the time tick by during the lecture in chemistry class. Our teacher was going on about notes, upcoming tests and about studying for it next week. I wasn't really in the motivational mood to listen to it all.

My mind was caught up some where else.

Alex watched me intently in his seat across from mine, me being completely oblivious to his gaze until Mr. Sholtz, our teacher, ordered us to work with a partner of our choosing for an experimental project said to be done in class.

Instinctively I turned to Alex. Both of us silently knowing to partner up like we always did since the past week.

Get to work, and don't forget to fill out your paper work. Said Mr. Sholtz.

If I wanted time to go by quicker then I supposed I'd have to work for it, like every one else. I took my eyes off the clock and resurfaced from my thoughts only to bring myself to focus my sights onto the lab equipment sitting in front of me and soon Alex came to the table sitting right besides me.

You look completely lost in thought. He notified to me, in a matter a fact tone with a laugh in his voice.

"I am." I muttered plainly more to myself then to him but he responded to me anyway.

"About...?"

Us. I answered plainly.

Apparently I wasn't specific enough since he looked completely confused about my answer.

"Okay, Us?" He shrugged urging me to continue.

I leaned in to him and spoke quietly. We kissed earlier, in front of the class in gym. I never had a problem with it before but considering the whispers and the glares I've been given I'm starting to second guess that we shouldn't do it in public anymore.

I looked him in the eyes and he looked back at me dumfounded.

I didn't blame him, after all it was Me saying all this after all. The guy who would just sit there and ignore it all but what if I told you that I couldn't bring myself to ignore everything, no matter how simple it was to just let it go and not let it get to me. Of course there were some things that just bothered me and got stuck in my head to the point where I couldn't just let it go like I had trained myself to do the last past 2 years of high school.

"You can't be serious- are you?" He said in disbelief.

"That's why I'm telling you." I rose an eyebrow.

Gareki, He frowned. Since when did you care about the way people think about you? You always ignore it-

Well even ignoring it doesn't completely keep it away. I said quickly obviously bothered by his response.

Alex stayed quiet for a few seconds trying to contemplate what to say or just handle the fact that I had said what was bothering me without having to keep it howled up inside which was some what of a first.

Are you bothered by the way we show our relationship in school- I mean not saying that it's obvious but we've kissed a lot of time in school with people around. I don't think you should worry about it. I mean nothing bad had happened. So what if you get a few stares and whispers they won't do anything. He encouraged.

"I sat back in my seat and sighed." Moving a hand threw my hair before answering. Maybe you're right , I'm just out of it right now since I might be the center of attention. You know I don't like a huge audience knowing about me. That's all.

So you're not nervous about the whole school finding out we're a gay couple? He asked me with a slight smirk on his lips.

Not nervous. I like us being together the way we are but with so many people having there own oppinions about it and telling their friends just to make a fool of us, it's making me unsure about us showing it in public like we've been doing.