CODE RED (Book 1)

All In My Head

In science later that day, things were off with me. . .more then usual. For some odd reason I couldn't get what had happened in that dream out of my head. Things were serious in that moment and every thing of course felt real, I couldn't shake off the feeling of familiarity with the events that had occurred in that nightmare.

It hadn't bothered me earlier as much as it did now. But recently, it had found it's way into my mind, causing me to become distracted and less in touch with my school work.

I grew tired and my eyes kept closing and every time they did I was reliving that dream. . . or rather nightmare.

I couldn't see strait in reality, but neither could I in the nightmare. The other me just kept running in a panic that had caused my own heart rate to increase in my chest. That was just how realistic things were. The constant thud against my rib cage made a cold sweat run down my backside and forehead.

I blew out a steady quiet breath to calm my nerves as I tried to focus on my teachers lecture about conserving energy. But as I listened, his voice just grew faint and mixed up. like the words weren't processed correctly to my ears.

I suddenly found it hard to breathe and my vision only turned darker. . .more shaken and I felt myself turning ever so slowly. Like my world was spinning in slow motion but my body was kept still. I tensed up as I finally gave in to controlling my nerves.

I fell.

A loud crash snapped me out of my fatigue. My eyes opened just then, wide with surprise and I didn't know where I was anymore or what was happening. Every one was staring at me, even Alex.

His face as well as every one else was mixed between confusion and concern.

I noticed a pain in my backside just now realizing I had fallen from my seat.

Alex reached down and helped me up and I sat back down in my chair, to distracted by my own thoughts to even notice every ones eyes still on me.

The teacher had asked if I was okay but I hadn't answered. I didn't know what was going on with me. was I still tired even though I had slept well that morning. At least I thought I had slept good despite Alex waking me up.

After a minute everyone in the class as well as my teacher minded their own business, turning their eyes away fro me. Well except for one person.

My boyfriend. Alex.

He kept his eyes on me.

I tried to play it off like I didn't notice him in my peripheral vision.

He just kept staring at me, examining my face slowly, from my forehead, to my eyes down to my nose cheekbones and jawline before coming to my slightly parted lips.

I lifted up the back of my mechanical pencil to my teeth and bit down on it slightly, still trying to distract myself of the fact he had been staring at me for to long, even for himself. Normally he would just give me a 5 second glance but this lasted much longer.

Before I knew it the bell had rung, dismissing class for the day, and I hadn't heard a thing our teacher said with his lecture, which wasn't the first time that day.

I had to admit my nerves still weren't the same. In fact they were still twisting themselves inside me, all jumbled up, confusing and bothersome. I didn't know how much more of this I could take. I didn't exactly feel weak but my body just felt odd and I doubt it was the initial start of puberty. I had already gone threw that a long time ago.

I grabbed my book and stood up as the rest of the class piled out of the open door way, getting mixed up with all the other students in the hallway trying to get out of school as fast as they could.