CODE RED (Book 1)

Cold Feeling

"The shower's this way". Alex pointed out to me once both of us had gotten back to his house. I had looked at the time it was now 8:56Pm. Time had passed quickly but that was to be expected. Time always flew by to me.

I made the rest of the way up stairs and went in the direction his finger was pointing and flipped on the light switch to see the medium sized bathroom with baby blue paint on the walls with a single shielded window.

"Thanks." I murmured distractedly. Looking down at the floor I slowly walked inside the bathroom with a simple black T shirt and sweat pants he had given me to change into for night attire since I hadn't packed that before leaving home.

From behind I could since his eyes on me still, Alex had been staring at me for the longest of moments ever since we made it back to his house. Gareki, your mom, she just needs some time. . .to recover. He tried to suggest in order to make me feel better. But it didn't help much.

I shook my head not wanting to think about it. I don't want to hear it. I snapped unexpectedly not turning around to face him. I hadn't wanted my voice to come out like that, it wasn't like any of this was Alex's fault who was completely innocent in this situation, he had seen something he shouldn't have witnessed but the damage had already been done now he had another peek into my personal world.

I don't need to remember what happened today. I added absentmindedly.

". . . Alright. He said slowly not expecting my sudden bite towards him but he didn't sound effected at all. "I'll be back with your towel, okay?" He asked not waiting for me to answer before he shut the door, I heard it click shut behind me letting me know he was gone.

I sucked in a breath but that didn't even help settle my nerves like it usually did. I raked a hand threw my hair not believing that my mom was actually still thinking about what her husband/my dad, did to me. I was shocked to say the least. I hadn't expected her to act the way she did, she had seemed so calm and collected during the last past month since me being in the hospital.

I had wondered why so many times was she so unnerved by what had happened to me as if it hadn't happened at all, I thought she was moving on with Jared trying to be happy which made me kind of understand why she tried to forget about all of it, but I guess. . .she really didn't and she lied to me about that.

I couldn't believe how dumb I had been. But could I seriously blame myself? , Her act was completely believable up until she admitted everything to me. I had no idea she was hurting inside just like I was. she was so happy when Jared came along but then as if triggered. . .she became depressed.

At that moment an image of her still sitting on the floor with that pathetic look flashed threw my mind making me breath in quickly before I placed my hands on either side of the counter and from my eyes I could tell I was paler then usual. I wasn't sick though. I was just surprised and devastated.

I clenched onto the edge of the sink wanting nothing more then to just scream in rage. Why did she lead me on like that and then just throw it away causing everything in that house to turn bad all over again!

I pinched the bride of my nose shutting my eyes tightly holding back the sting that burned in the back of them. I wasn't going to cry again over this! Not now! But even if I said that I knew I was just lying.

I took in another deep breath feeling my chest ache with the bitterness I heard in her voice earlier that day when she yelled at me at the top of her lungs.

Down stairs I heard Alex's voice. He was explaining the situation to his parents of what happened at my house which lead up to why I was spending the night over here.