The Darkness Of love

Blink Space

It's all just

Confusing now. For myself. Like, I'm dealing with SO much besides love. Like stress, sadness, anger, and depression. And it's just all going on top of me.

It's been awhile now. After my whole break up with Taylor. I met this other girl. She makes me happy, really happy. She makes me smile and laugh, and says sweet things about me. And I do the same for her.

And you know I thought I give us a shot. You know? See where things will take us together. But it's all just going through my mind and stuff

Her

That girl

Just that amazing girl. She never leaves me, ever. And not my feelings but in person too. She's always been there for me, when I needed someone.

Like REALLY needed someone. Be by my side, to talk to. Someone to help let my emotions out and make me laugh all the pain out. Someone to hug and really feel the hug. And never wanting to let go from it.

She was there.

I mean I'm not saying I ain't happy in my relationship because oh my god I am. Really happy. But I know deep in my heart that one spot. That is the brightest out of them all, is filled up from the girl.

Guys, what would you do? If your stuck knowing your attached to someone and knowing they'll never be attached to you. In the same way.

What would you do?

If it's been 3 years you always had a thing for her, maybe more.

You can't just let it go. You can't throw it all away. Because it's been with you for so long that it's kinda just apart from you. And every time you meet someone knew. You like em but they don't fill you up all the way.

What would you do..? Nothing? Or something?

I don't know.

I sometimes wish I always had an answer to everything, or at least feel like I do.

So I don't feel so dumb with myself sometimes.

Heh i always act like I know stuff when I really don't. Make people feel like I am smart like a geek but not actually be one.

Whatever.

I just don't know what to do at the moment besides live whatever is gonna happen.