Shatter

1. The New Guy

           You know how something made of glass will shatter if it falls? Well that's what my heart felt like the day my grandma passed away. My mom, sister and I had to decide to pull the plug on her when we found out she wouldn't make it. That was the worst day of my life and the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My world and heart were shattered that day. I vowed that I would never fall in love or let anyone in. That way I wouldn't get hurt again. I shut myself down and put my walls up. 

           I didn't cry again for a long time after that first month. I was a cold, dark version of myself and I didn't laugh or talk like I used too. I was a different person and I never thought anyone would get through my walls. Me and my family were all changed after that. But on top of that we also had a secret to keep so we had to stay under control. You see we aren't human, we are vampires. We have kept our secret for years. 

           So when he came along, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't figure out what it was about him. He was just mysterious to me. It felt like we knew each other but I had never met him before. It was like our souls knew each other. There was no other guy like him. And it scared me how strongly I was drawn to him. I had to make myself stay a safe distance from him. I didn't want him to break down my walls and find out my secret. I felt like I could tell him anything.

          I had this other human boyfriend three years ago. He cheated on me and brought the girl to my house over night. It hurt me, the was my first boyfriend. It felt like he stabbed him in the heart and slapped me in the face at the same time. But it was a wakeup call for me, I saw how he really was. But I even though I hated him, I tried to protect him when the vampire lords found out. They killed him and I was in a dark place for a while because I wasn't able to protect him.   

          But the idea of letting someone else in and trusting them so easily made me freak out. It was like I had known him my whole life, like he was my brother or something. I wanted to know him but I didn't want to get close to him at the same time. It was all so confusing to me and I didn't know what to do. I was afraid of hurting him and getting hurt by him. Either way someone would get hurt. 

         Then there was also the fear he would turn out like the a**whole of a father I had. And I couldn't go through that again. So that scared me too, I didn't know how this guy was. I didn't feel like I needed to be afraid of him though. I guess that's why I found him interesting.